I placed my mom in a memory care home Aug 24th. It was a very difficult decision and process. Now, just over a week later, after over 7 years of being with her, taking care of her, watching her mind deteriorate before my eyes, I feel like I've made so many mistakes in so many ways that all I've done is ruin my own life and made hers miserable. What is killing me is that I'm seeing how much better she is doing at the home then when she was here in her home, with me here. I'm glad she is doing better. I waited too long but she wanted to stay in her home. I miss her so much and I want to visit her as much as possible but she seems to do better when I don't come around because she still feels like a burden and like I do so much, like she is a bother. She doesn't understand how much I miss her. She doesn't need me anymore but I need her. I don't know how to deal with this. It is so painful. She is still aware but her mind declined so quickly these past couple months I just couldn't handle it anymore.