Caring for Mom, seeing the things she does and says and the way she behaves has given me a terrible dread for my own old age. When something like this is in your face day after day, does anyone else feel concerned and dread of the future for yourself? Mom has always been difficult, but now she is a total stranger, a person none of us want to be around. As I watched her become like this over the years, and especially now that she has full blown dementia, I'm starting to analyze myself, worry about every time I forget something and wonder "Is it starting for me? Will I be like her? Will I lose control, will my family not want to be around me?" I never thought much about old age until now. I always knew I would eventually lose my hearing, that I can deal with and get help. But the dementia, when it is right in front of you constantly it becomes a dreadful reminder of the future to come.