Now I feel like if I say anything it will never be right. Oh I was looking on Facebook and came across an advertisement for a photo studio. I kept looking and it’s my youngest niece about 9 months pregnant. That really hit me and my poor mom said she won’t live to see the baby. Then I am down about my fil. He got dressed to go outside open the door and the girl asked what was he doing. He said he had to get his car to pick up his wife to go to the post office. I turn it over but is it okay to still feel something. I feel like the one year that I acted like everything was fine and I was in so much pain from the eating disorder I drank a half of a shooter. I am not there I feel like there’s something wrong with me.