My husband is 78 years old. For years now he has had a death wish upon himself. Sometimes just sitting & thinking about how much he wants to die.
He also has anger outburst from something as simple as forgetting a password & using the worst profanity you can imagine but it's against himself about how stupid & ignorant (except with the add profanity) he is and how he just needs to die. He's only here to pay bills & nothing else. He's also made comments that he doesn't know why when a person gets older that they can just take a pill & end their life. He says he would never commit kill himself cause insurance wouldn't pay out & that he's not brave enough to do it.
I've begged him to go to doctor for help & he refuses. When he talks of wanting to die, of course, it affects me. I end up in tears begging him to listen that I love him very much & how much other people love him but it does no good.
I've told him several times that I would talk to his son if he didn't seek some medical attention but he still refuses.
I feel so inadequate as a wife that I'm doing something wrong that my husband would rather die than be here with me. I'm at my wits end. I suffer from depression and migraines.
I told him this morning that he either gets medical treatment or we were going to sit down & discuss things with his son. He loves & values his sons opinion very much. His family knows nothing about his outburst & death wishes but mine do. Even my friends as he has shown out in front of the, before, literally shoving his food off the table in front of my friends & family.
Please someone give me some advice.
Thank you & God bless