I am a caregiver for my parents. I have two sisters who live out of town and leave it all to me. I can get snippets of help financially, but only after begging. I do everything (housekeeping, bills, doctor's appointments, ER vigils, pet care, medicine, grocery shopping). My Dad nearly died two years ago, and although better, can longer give me any help with mom or do any of the job he once did. I can no longer work, and I never get a day off. Mom is riddled with health problems (COPD, CLL, kyphosis, back fractures, macular degeneration, hearing loss, chronic pain) and anxiety. She is also very needy. Very needy.
She was a very good mother and I want to help, but that often mean getting only a few hours of sleep at night. Her fears/issues mean that I never get to cater to any of my needs. I am depressed and her anxiety sets off my anxiety. I am sad all of the time. I feel like I have disappeared, and that no one ever sees me. I am willing to take help but none is ever offered. I have no money to pay for any. I have checked into to every "program" an filled out forms but no help ever comes. I have abandoned planning anything because Mom's illnesses interfere daily and I am tired of being disappointed. As I write this I have been called back to her 4 times. I have given up on any dreams of mine (I am 45). I don't have my own family, and people who I thought were friends have moved on without me.
I know there is nothing anything reading this can do for me, I really have turned to all options. I have cried to social workers, and they all tell me to check out things I have already done.
I am lonely, but I will keep gong.