My spouse had a serious stroke in 2011. After a long stay in skilled nursing he was able to come home and I've been caring for him for about 6 years. His cognitive facilities survived but he is physically disabled and a fall risk and he's had a couple of serious hospital scares for a persistent cardiac problem. He is on a PACE program (heartily recommended; our provider is excellent), but the toll on me has been significant. As a result of not being able to put in sufficient work hours, I lost my job as a business publications editor, and with it, my professional identity. I could no longer do things for my contact base. Anyway, that's not all of it. While my spouse's adult day health program gets him 4 days a week, which sounds like it would leave me a lot of free time to network, it's not the RIGHT segment of free time. I have to be home when the chair van arrives in the morning and home when the chair van comes to drop him off at night. I will NOT have him come home to an empty house! But I can't do Business Before Hours and Business After Hours meetings to network for freelance ops. He can't be left alone safely for long stretches because of the fall risk. Not to mention the doctors' and PT appointments that take up a lot of time. I am quite depressed but do not want to burden him with this (though he knows anyway). I not only took wedding vows but also signed the consent form in the hospital for the surgery that saved his life, so I am 100 percent responsible for what happens to him. A former work colleague recently asked me what I want to do next, and I was embarrassed that I utterly could not come up with any response. I just don't know! It was... what's the point? Too many other people can do what I did. I do volunteer work that is much needed, but as they said in Chorus Line, 'That ain't it, kid.' Has anyone else gone through this? How do you try to save your own life without upsetting a beloved care receiver?