I picked him and his wife up off the ground for years. Took them to the doctor and hospital every time. He always has been narcissistic and puts me down on everything I do. My grandmother passed several years ago. She was diabetic and severely unhealthy. Tonight my grandfather was complaining about something. And I took advice off this site to just ignore it and not take it personal. He then called me a bastard and told me to go to hell. And said I’m killing him just like I killed my grandmother. I did everything in my power to make sure she had the care she needed. I picked her up off the ground time after time. Same with my grandfather after his mini strokes. I didn’t think twice about getting them to the hospital. I’m physically and emotionally exhausted. I can’t handle it anymore. There is no other family or the funds to seek alternative care. I have no friends to talk to or family. I have a uncle that lives in another state but wants nothing to do with his father. He don’t call or anything during holidays or birthdays. So I’m on my own. My mother does what she can. She can’t drive so I’m the one playing taxi. I’m severely depressed and even considered suicide. I have nothing or no one because I take care of my grandfather and his estate. I do not have power of attorney. And if I could manage to save the money to leave. My mother and grandfather would be stuck in the middle of nowhere alone. I’m so upset I cannot even type coherently. After he blamed me for his wife’s death. It made me feel like that was the straw that broke the camels back. I’m beginning to literally hate him. I don’t know what to do. Or how to find counseling. I do not have the money to pay for it. I have no insurance so I can’t even go to a doctor for antidepressants. I guess I’m typing this because I want/need someone to talk to. If anyone is in a similar situation. Please tell your story and how you deal with it.