I feel extremely guilty for feeling this way but I honestly can’t take it anymore. FIL moved in with us yr and half ago when MIL was diagnosed and later passed from cancer. FIL was an alcoholic in his younger days and quite frankly didn’t treat his wife very well. Anyhow she waited on him hand to foot and that’s all he knows. I am so very tired of every single day all he talks about is himself. His eyesight, his hearing, his back, his mouth etc. or today I walked around the block 3 times. He over reacts and he likes to take his pain medication dr gave him months ago when they gave him root canal. At latest family event (baptism) he accidentally took pain Med and became off balance and lethargic. I wanted to call ambulance but instead we had to go to nearby pharmacy and buy blood pressure cuff and stay in his room to make sure he was ok. Finally hubby took away his stash of pain meds. His son runs him around to doctors at least three times a week. He was trying to get more pain meds from dentist but they cannot find anything wrong. ( I personally think he likes them and is trying to get more). Anyway, I was wondering if it is normal for me to resent having this 85 yr old man in my house that I don’t even like. It’s to the point where I need to get out. My hubby won’t let his dad go to a home because FIL says that is worse than being sent to a jail for crime you don’t commit. It’s literally me that has to go. I can’t cope any longer and I resent that the only privacy I get is hiding in my bedroom. I’m a grown woman. Thanks for any help.