How do I live this life? It has been very isolating and empty. We have actually lost "friends". We have 2 family members that are barely involved. So there is our little world. I do not enjoy being with my spouse because of the constant questions that make very little sense, so I try to get friends to take her for an over night visit. I am grateful for that time, but it happens every 3 months. I find that I am running away from her because I am so unfulfilled and unhappy. It has been 5 years now and she is still home with day care 5 days a week. Yes, I again am grateful for that, but nothing seems to be enough for ME. Yes I said it. It is about me. I am 62 and feel so hopeless and unhappy.