Until today, I had not seen this addressed. I realized that taking care of our LOs
we don't give ourselves enough time to mourn, cry or be sad? I read most of the answers, related to so many yet finding much welcomed encouragement!
Thank you. Caregiver to my husband since 2015. I noticed unfamiliar changes at first. Took sometime to get primary docs attention and to coax LO to be tested. Referred to Cleveland Clinic. More tests, conclusion: no Alz. nor dementia. Referred to pulmonologist. More tests. Diagnosis: vascular dementia, put on oxygen therapy, 3 sleep apnea tests failing because closterphobic, could not/ would not handle masks etc. So continued to care for his needs, handling slow decline w/his memory pretty good until 2018 WHAM! My younger sister died suddenly Dec. 2018 after Thanksgiving, one week before her 69 b'day. Yes, I was very sad but my anger didn't leave time to mourn. Heart valve replacement 5 yrs. earlier. She didn't feel well on a Sat., was on life support by/and died next day! Heart valve had been leaking for who knows how long! She'd been under Drs. care for other non life threatening issues, tested numerous times & no one ever picked up on it? So I grabbed on to what my faith has taught me for comfort & to let go of anger, The will of God. I/we don't understand it but must accept it. I've learned that acceptance and forgiveness are two most difficult things to master. So life went on then my older sister in remission from breast cancer15 yrs. , cancer back, she died early Jan. 2019. In a few days my husband will be evaluated for palliative care? I've developed sadness and if I allow it, a bit of depression. Will cling harder to my faith. Prayer has been my go to more often than ever, since my favorite get away was to church & that stopped by COVID. I truly believe Devine intervention reminds me of how God was w/ me during caring for my mother until her death 30!yrs. ago and for my only son at 34 yrs. old , in 1995. I have to trust deeply that I/ we get through sadness, mourning, anger only by Grace. Am truly grateful for being able to express myself here and I have 2 daughters ,3 grandchildren that are willing and able to support & help if needed. My two brothers also. They're all adults, have their own lives to navigate but bottom line, the blessings & the good stuff outweigh the bad. Many tears here but smiles are more abundant. Blessings & love to all.
We will be ok. I believe it and receive it.
🙏🏽🙏🏽 s for a Happy Sunday.