My mom had a stroke 3-1/2 years ago. At the time, I had just been medically retired from a job, and that made it convenient while she got a grasp on her new life. She is where she’s going to be now physically, and mentally, as close to her old self as I could ever ask for (good and bad! LOL). She lives in assisted living and is happy there. She gets lonely still, but the routine is key for her. I’m there 2-3 times a week to exercise her and take her to appointments, and a friend of mine does the same.
My husband has been on furlough, so I interested him in also, for me and in between for both of them. She enjoys someone different.
Now that husband is going back to work, I realize I have had a jealousy and anger because he still has a work family. I am able to get at least a part time job, just not on my feet all day.
I mentioned it to mom, and of course she worries (probably about my visits mostly), partly because I understand her better than anyone (her speech was affected).
The guilt never seems to end, but I feel if I don’t start doing for myself, the resentment will be far worse than any guilt, especially after she’s gone, and I could have been working.
There is no way I can push her appointments and therapy I do to anyone else, so there’s no way that I would neglect her, but I feel I will explode if I don’t get some sort of life back and contribute to my and my husband’s income (and my MENTAL HEALTH).
Is this all a common circle only children go through, or am I missing something?