A year ago I was in a bad relationship. I since have worked very hard at learning how to love myself and be independent. I succeeded and started enjoying going out with friends. I even went to Ireland on a tour group solo. It was a big step. I have embraced my independence and was about to start dating again. I am a 53 year old women. I raised my son who is 26 and living on his own. I also am running a business.
The beginning of August my dad's health went downhill. After exploring every option financially and with insurance the only option was to take him in. I now am his 24/7 caregiver. He is in my spare bedroom on my second floor. He is very frail and cannot use the stairs. I am having to take all his meals and anything else he needs up the stairs all the time.
I have had to give up everything. I was so independent and enjoying my life and so happy. Now I can’t do anything. I am reading all the fun things my friends are doing on Facebook. I was at such a happy place. Am I selfish? Am I wrong to be so sad about missing my life? Is it wrong to hire someone to watch my dad while I go out? I used to come and go as I please. Now I feel like I have a toddler that I can’t leave or have only 1-2 hours to do something. I am so tired and so sad. I love my dad but I don’t think I can do this. What should I do?