You all have been a great deal of help to me. I don’t think there’s a unique or never heard of before experience on here. So here’s my latest.
I took mom to the doctor last week, found her a great doctor who specializes in Geriatric medicine. Mom agreed that she would do all the tests, which she has, and also agreed to a low dose antidepressant. Her depression is severe, off the chart bad. Even she admits it.
The antidepressant is in the process of being filled and I told her again about it this morning, how important it was to take it, and that it will really turn things around and how she’ll benefit from it so please be sure to start it as soon as we get it.
”Well, we’ll see.”
I could have fallen out of my chair. “Mom I have to put my foot down here, you have GOT to take this medication it has gone on for too long.” Then I get the look away, far away day dream look.
I am going to tell her that if she chooses to be non compliant with her medication that I’ll tell her physician and she can write up orders for a visiting nurse to come in and attend to her because I won’t.
I feel like I’m being hateful or evil or something but jeez, if she doesn’t want to try to get better I’m going to literally lose my sanity. I will go crazy(er) for sure.
I get that she feels like she’s not in control, but where did the trying-to-get-better go. She’s cropped up with another issue that I have to drop everything, leave work, and take her to a doctor that can fit her in tomorrow. You know that kind of appointment, no real set time we’ll just fit you in. Several hours later....
Thanks for listening. I feel like a royal a$$ for saying all this but I’m getting so fed up I can’t stand myself. And my own health is suffering because of it.