I was the primary caregiver for an elderly couple for six years. The husband passed away Aug 2018. The family is getting together this June or July to remember him. When he passed away the son just had him cremated and the ashes have been with him since.
This long delay is very different for me. I’m used to being able to cry for my loved one at funerals and I’ve unintentionally been holding back, so I am afraid a year isn’t going to help me not to cry at this get together. The Family prides itself on not being emotional.
I really wanna go but another cog in the wheel is that his brother was my boyfriend for 10 years and I thought we were going to be together and it turned out I was a fool. I don’t want to see him but I really want to be there for the father. Any suggestions? I’m pretty sure I’m going to be told to put on my big girl panties LOL. Thank you.