I just need to talk it out. After nightmares for a week, and eating lots of sugars for 2 nights, and then crying before sleeping for both nights, I realized I was burnt out. I haven't had to race with someone to the ER (or follow ambulance in a snowstorm) since late Feb., so I though I was doing better, eating well, getting to my own appointments, handling details and making decisions. I really thought I was improving, catching up on my stuff, not just the triage effect of doing the next right thing to keep us all alive. I think what happened was I had time to relax and feel how really tired I was. With more sleep and a few spring walks, sitting in the sun, I began to realize just how long my life has been difficult. How many can relate? Some background - I have had my aunt in home for 6 1/2 years. At first I enjoyed it. Besides the time to set up POA, move accounts in state, sell her home, get a sitter/companion, we had time to go sight-seeing up through the mountains where she and my uncle used to vacation. Aging progresses to where she can no longer move around without a walker, can't remember what was just said, and can't be reasoned with. She won't go out, even to sit in the sun on the porch. Getting her to any appointment is a chore, and sometimes acting like a stern parent on my part. She can't get any food for herself except donuts and coffee, sleeps a lot. Meanwhile my husband has been ill for a year, gradually getting worse. I have gone from the two of us taking care of one person, to one of me doing all driving and watching out for two. They can't be left alone due to dizziness. Aunt falls only in mornings, though not at all for 6 weeks (and a whole year before that), but hubby could fall at any time. He hasn't for nearly a year, but has come close. Yes, I increased companion times, and one can drive my husband to important appointments if I can't. All his tests are negative, and he's now in limbo as to cause. Doc is on it, but I am no longer patient. He does take care of self, talks with visiting nurse, makes calls, etc., but some home chores I have taken over. No, no nearby relatives. I used to go away for one week a year to stay with a son or a brother and his wife, but not last year. They flew here to visit us. I get out for my own appts. and to buy groceries. I am going to bed early, and calling again tomorrow for aunt's meds, and for respite care. How are you doing? And how did you know before you burnt out?