I guess it's just our human nature. We get worn out or have to face things that we'd rather not do. I'm in both of those categories when it comes to caregiving. After years of caring for very advanced ALZ mom, I now have Parkinsons dad, age 79. I'm daily aware that I'm just going through the motions. Putting on a smile and giving my fake little laugh, when in reality I'm thinking "Lord I don't want to do this anymore." And I'll keep going, I know I will. And I get nice breaks throughout the day and throughout the week, but I don't want to do even the small things for him anymore. And Every. Single. Day. I'm aware that I'm faking goodheartedness and compassion. I just want the whole ordeal to end. (and yes, you know what that means, and that's what I mean). So I worry about what that says about me. I want to believe I'm a kind person, but I don't feel an ounce of kindness anymore. Anyway, I'm really just ranting, because compared to many of your stories on this site, I have things pretty easy and I do get nice regular breaks, but I'm just stuck in "Lord please make it go away" mode. What's your thoughts on all those days when as caregivers we have to fake it and pretend to compassion we honestly don't feel at the moment?