My father had a stroke over 2 years ago, and 5 months later my mother passed away after 2 1/2 years with Bile Duct Stage 4 cancer. I was her caregiver, and for 5 months was caregiver to both of them. Over the past 2 years, my father has gone into major Depression and is taking medication for this. He tells me on a frequent basis he hates me. Also I have no one helping me. Everyone else has a life. I work from home and try my best to care for him. He takes medications for diabetic, high blood pressure, cholesterol. And I have had to hide the pain medications, since he was sneaking them on a daily basis. I took him to the senior center, he cried for days, thinking I'm taking him to a senior home. He says I treat him like a slave, but never ask him to do anything. He tells me he hates everyone. He doesn't let me talk to his doctor anymore either. He forgets to tell his doctor anything either. He gets lost on a straight road. I need serious help, and I know help costs money, which I do not have, and he hardly has any either. He has gotten me to the point of crying and shouting at him. When I do shout at him, he acts nicer. If he could stay like this I would enjoy spending time with him. When I took time for myself when I was sick and bad weather, he didn't eat meals properly, he can't even heat up the food I cooked in the fridge. He will eat junk food and get his blood sugar over 400. Then he asks me all the time why is his sugar high, he sleeps until 10-11 am now as well. This week his gotten to the point of just sitting in his chair with no television on. Whenever I try to talk to him, he tells me I am upsetting him, and I haven't even gotten 5 words out. So I can't talk to him either. I need help, and I don't know where to go.