I feel horrible writing this. I do not have it bad at all. My father still has his mental capacity in his late 90s. He lives by himself and while I am trying to get him on Medicaid I took out a second mortgage to pay for an aide. So I am not physically doing any hands on care for him. But I feel like there are crises all the time. I just dread it when the phone rings. I am an only child with no other local relatives to share the burden. My mother was ill for ten years before she died and my husband, who is almost 20 years older than I am is ill also. I have a very high pressure job, I am the breadwinner for my family, and still have a teenager living at home, who is great but also has some health issues. At times I just don’t want to get out of bed. I went on vacation a few weeks ago to my favorite place on earth with my daughter who is one of my favorite people on earth and I did not really feel any benefits of relaxation. I totally know that compared with people who have actually been the only caregivers for their LOs with dementia I have it easy. I always thought I was a strong person but I am just so tired of talking to doctors and elder care people and agencies and taking care of everything for everybody. I take a walk with my dog every day for some peace and quiet and my vacation was a way to try to do something positive for myself but I just feel so overwhelmed sometimes. Can a woman in her 50s run away from home?!? Anyone care to join me?