"I had spent several hours shopping for her and she asked me if I had heard from my brother. I responded that no I had not talked to him recently and she had not seen him in almost a year, but she described him as the only child she had that she could depend on."
Sometimes you need to fight back. You could have firmly said "you can depend on him? Good, because that means I can take a break. So next time you need groceries, call him"
When she starts the verbal abuse you walk away. The next time she does it, tell her that you will no longer take the verbal abuse. She appreciates nothing you do for her and you don't have to do it. So, maybe next time call golden brother she can depend on. Then walk out of the apt. Do not take any of her calls for a day or two. When you do, if she gets abusive, tell her your are hanging up and until she talks to you like the adult you are, you will keep hanging up on her. People treat you the way you allow them.
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." Eleanor Roosevelt
You say you are a Christian and want to be obedient and honor your mom.
You are not a child, when you got married, you left your mother and father and became one with your husband. Nothing in Scripture tells us to be obedient as married adults. Honor is respect, not accepting abuse.
Scripture also tells parents not to provoke their children to anger.
If you are going to use Scripture as the why for accepting her abuse, please research it and use actual Scripture.
You say your siblings don't wish to help in care of your abusive mother? That's fine. They don't have to do anything. Neither do you. Each person chooses how he or she will help or not help. Other than that I am uncertain what boundaries you are wanting to set, and who you want to make them clear to.
My heart aches for you - and that is straight up truth - because I see so much of my SIL and my husband in your post. They are slowly coming out of the FOG (Fear, Obligation, Guilt) of obeying and honoring an abusive, narcissistic father who believes they owe him fealty and servitude after years of horrible abuse. I recognize that it is easier said than done to break free from the years of conditioning from verbal abuse, especially since your mother had all the time in the world to get into your head and ensure that you feel like you owe her - pair that with the strong religious ties ( I get that too). But please hear what I'm about to say - it will hopefully save you some pain and help you move forward.
You cannot earn what she cannot give. It does not matter what you do or how hard you work. If she doesn't have it to give to you, nothing you do will change that. If she has always been this abusive person, she spent years conditioning you to believe you were supposed to take care of her (and it sounds like she did). What about YOUR life? You have a right to a life. You are your own person. You should be able to live a life free of abuse. YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO BE ABUSED. Abusers thrive on and COUNT ON the fact that you will stay and continue to take their abuse. And in the case of parents who abuse - they have taught you that you deserve it. You don't.
Just because she is your mother, you do not owe her the right to abuse you. She is provoking you to wrath. It's time to consider yourself. And other options.
Here is what I will tell you briefly in our case. The more my DH and SIL stand up to FIL - the smaller he becomes. The less power he has. He blusters, he yells, he gets angry, he is MEAN. But guess what....that's all. He has words....but once they realized that he couldn't hurt them...he had no actual power....the words did nothing anymore. There is a silly movie where Scrappy Doo is this big evil monster because he got some bad magic power, and the team takes the magic away and he's fighting them and doesn't realize he's tiny again and still fighting and snarling and that's how I see my FIL now...this snarling little mess who keeps fighting but doesn't realize he doesn't have any power anymore. It's kind of sad but also empowering to DH and SIL because they realize THEY have the power now.
Take your power. Realize that YOU really do have the power here. What happens if you stop taking care of her? Is there anyone else? Because that IS power. If you aren't doing for her - she has to pay someone or go somewhere - that makes you important - REALIZE that. SHE NEEDS YOU. Start there. You aren't expendable. Seriously - You need to realize that. If you aren't willing to seek other options right now. You need to at least recognize that she needs you more than you need her - that shifts the power. Don't wilt when she says mean things. Tell her. Tell her that if she doesn't need you, then you are going to take some time off. And then do it. Watch what happens. For the record, my FIL PANICS when my SIL leaves the house, just an FYI. So you need to recognize your worth here. That is your currency to start setting your boundaries. YOU need to start with you.
My mom lives in an apartment. She lives alone. The abuse is verbal. She says very hurtful things to me and when I try to tell her the words are hurtful, she says it is because I’m too sensitive. Example-I had spent several hours shopping for her and she asked me if I had heard from my brother. I responded that no I had not talked to him recently and she had not seen him in almost a year, but she described him as the only child she had that she could depend on. When I told her that I found that statement hurtful, she told me I was the most sensitive person she had ever met and she didn’t know where I came from.
She has OCD. Example-I do all of her shopping. Her tissues must be Kleenex, trusted care, 144 sheets per box. This is one of the many specifics of her products.
I don’t know how to set boundaries that would help me communicate to her I’m not allowing her to try and control me.
I hope you can follow through in putting more emphasis on YOUR needs. Is there just one sibling -- Golden Boy? How incredibly hurtful when your mother says things like he is the only one she can count on! And she hadn't seen him in almost a year?
My mother said similar things to me. She fawned over Sonny No Show, said HIS time was valuable, yet mine was worthless. Yes, he lived out of state, but wouldn't bother to travel to see our mother. Interestingly, this was not her favorite child while he was growing up (I have 3 brothers). And all I suggested was that HE research for one of her wild goose chases instead of me.
I have 2 brothers and a sister. They all live out of state. I have been my mom’s primary caregiver for 19 years. She has been physically unable to walk for about 25 years. She chose not to have knee replacement and has spent the last 25 years sitting in a chair. My husband has a lot of health issues and during times I need to focus on him (surgeries, tests...) I have asked for assistance. I have been told by all that assistance is not available. As a Christian, I want to be obedient and honor my mother, but she is vey difficult. I feel setting boundaries may help her to see me as a daughter rather than a servant.
Sometimes you need to fight back. You could have firmly said "you can depend on him? Good, because that means I can take a break. So next time you need groceries, call him"
When she starts the verbal abuse you walk away. The next time she does it, tell her that you will no longer take the verbal abuse. She appreciates nothing you do for her and you don't have to do it. So, maybe next time call golden brother she can depend on. Then walk out of the apt. Do not take any of her calls for a day or two. When you do, if she gets abusive, tell her your are hanging up and until she talks to you like the adult you are, you will keep hanging up on her. People treat you the way you allow them.
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." Eleanor Roosevelt
You are not a child, when you got married, you left your mother and father and became one with your husband. Nothing in Scripture tells us to be obedient as married adults. Honor is respect, not accepting abuse.
Scripture also tells parents not to provoke their children to anger.
If you are going to use Scripture as the why for accepting her abuse, please research it and use actual Scripture.
That's fine. They don't have to do anything. Neither do you. Each person chooses how he or she will help or not help.
Other than that I am uncertain what boundaries you are wanting to set, and who you want to make them clear to.
You cannot earn what she cannot give. It does not matter what you do or how hard you work. If she doesn't have it to give to you, nothing you do will change that. If she has always been this abusive person, she spent years conditioning you to believe you were supposed to take care of her (and it sounds like she did). What about YOUR life? You have a right to a life. You are your own person. You should be able to live a life free of abuse. YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO BE ABUSED. Abusers thrive on and COUNT ON the fact that you will stay and continue to take their abuse. And in the case of parents who abuse - they have taught you that you deserve it. You don't.
Just because she is your mother, you do not owe her the right to abuse you. She is provoking you to wrath. It's time to consider yourself. And other options.
Here is what I will tell you briefly in our case. The more my DH and SIL stand up to FIL - the smaller he becomes. The less power he has. He blusters, he yells, he gets angry, he is MEAN. But guess what....that's all. He has words....but once they realized that he couldn't hurt them...he had no actual power....the words did nothing anymore. There is a silly movie where Scrappy Doo is this big evil monster because he got some bad magic power, and the team takes the magic away and he's fighting them and doesn't realize he's tiny again and still fighting and snarling and that's how I see my FIL now...this snarling little mess who keeps fighting but doesn't realize he doesn't have any power anymore. It's kind of sad but also empowering to DH and SIL because they realize THEY have the power now.
Take your power. Realize that YOU really do have the power here. What happens if you stop taking care of her? Is there anyone else? Because that IS power. If you aren't doing for her - she has to pay someone or go somewhere - that makes you important - REALIZE that. SHE NEEDS YOU. Start there. You aren't expendable. Seriously - You need to realize that. If you aren't willing to seek other options right now. You need to at least recognize that she needs you more than you need her - that shifts the power. Don't wilt when she says mean things. Tell her. Tell her that if she doesn't need you, then you are going to take some time off. And then do it. Watch what happens. For the record, my FIL PANICS when my SIL leaves the house, just an FYI. So you need to recognize your worth here. That is your currency to start setting your boundaries. YOU need to start with you.
AND that she believes that no matter how abusive she is, you will never leave her.
What medical and or psychiatric conditions does she have? Has she been diagnosed with dementia?
Where does she reside?
To what extent do you "help" her? Do you live with her or she with you?
Have her care needs been professionally assessed through a "needs assessment"?
What are her financial resources?
You ask about boundary setting; this can be saying "mother, you may not speak to me like that; I am leaving now".
It can be saying "no, I can't possibly do that."
It can be arranging for her to have professional care, either in a facility on her home, paid for by her.
She has OCD. Example-I do all of her shopping. Her tissues must be Kleenex, trusted care, 144 sheets per box. This is one of the many specifics of her products.
I don’t know how to set boundaries that would help me communicate to her I’m not allowing her to try and control me.
Your mother has made her bed with a lifetime of manipulation and abuse. It's not your job to care for her. Children are not a retirement plan.
I doubt any mainstream Christian clergy would tell you to "obey" your abusive mother.
It seems to me that your husband is your primary responsibility.
My mother said similar things to me. She fawned over Sonny No Show, said HIS time was valuable, yet mine was worthless. Yes, he lived out of state, but wouldn't bother to travel to see our mother. Interestingly, this was not her favorite child while he was growing up (I have 3 brothers). And all I suggested was that HE research for one of her wild goose chases instead of me.
Oh, and she told me I was too sensitive, also.