Hi everyone, and Happy Holidays to all!
After what has seemed as the most horrific year in my life, having taken care of not one, but two 94 yr olds in my house, who let’s not put past them- the fact the have hated me my entire life- I’m finding reasons to end the yr in a positive note.
For the past yr I’ve had my parents in my house, heard nothing but complaints, nasty remarks, hideous faces, and very little chance of setting the motors in reverse to go back to MyLife. I gave up, like ALL of you, your freedom, your independence, YOURSELF, to become a recipient of negativeness with no light at the end of the tunnel.
I'm exhausted, I’m sad, I am angry, I’m lost. But..above all- angry- because I do not find any joy in what I’m doing.
The “words of wisdom from others which sound like..” God will reward you in heaven”, are generated by those who have absolutely NO clue as to what we my friends are facing.
Yet, tonight I want to say to myself this was my choice, and my choice only. I could have left these two heartless, abusive people to rot somewhere, and wait for the phone call telling they were gone. But no!!!, instead I chose to do this. And..I take full responsibility for all the tears down my cheeks inumerous times of the day; for all the migraines, for all the body aches, for all the anxiety attacks and all to come.
So, what keeps me going?
Its all of you! YOU are sharing the same pain, the same anguish day in and out- and though we all voice out our sorrow, we seem to wake up the next day- and do it all again.
I Salute all of you for sharing with me your thoughts in this webpage- it’s been Godsend.
I can only but Thank You for having a kind heart and the willingness to share with all.
May this year end with a positive note for all- may you all be blessed.