My dad has vascular dementia. No medicine can help. My mother is the caregiver, and they moved close to me 1.5 years ago. I help as much as I can a couple days a week for a few hours while working full time and trying to keep my marriage going. My half brother lives half way across the globe and is of no help. My husband doesn't ask about my parents or how I'm doing. I just try to put on a happy face and keep up with the laundry dishes. My spare time where I use to workout and take care of myself is taken up by family. I'm so exhausted everyday I can't wake up at 4 am to workout. Now with the holidays, I'm trying to handle family birthdays and Christmas on top of everything else. I'm bitter, angry and am pissed off at everyone with an easier life at the moment. I'm spent. I have little left and I can't find a way to take care of myself and make husband/family understand. We have an agency helping but can't afford more care. The parents and I do not qualify for financial help. I want to crawl in a hole. I've been in tears all night and no one understands. Any words of wisdom? I can't quit my job or go on leave. My mom needs help and I'm it. This could go on for months or years. Help or words of encouragement needed.