Hi! I am 29 years old and I am grown by my only parent which is mum. She has gone through very difficult life (her mum had mental issues since she was in young age and my mum had two marriages in life and both ended because husbands died in accidents). We are 5 sisters and I am the last one which is living with mum. All are married. I want to make her happy but it seems impossible to her. I feel ashamed to say but we are having very bad time with fights around home. My mum had been a strong woman but what she did in all life for us was ruling, controlling and feeding us. I still suffer from lack confidence. The future scare me and I overthink so much. Mum is possessive in everything and she never feels fulfilled. For her I an not smart enough, successful enough. I used to grow up with the thoughts that my neighbours are more powerful than me and people in the tv are smarter then me. Although I finished my studies in one of the most requested and difficult branch (for accounting and auditing ) for her it's nothing. She doesn't even know for what I got graduated let alone to be supportive. She didn't know my desires and doesn't care to ask. When I talk and express her answer is just " call your mind, find a husband and make kids". Maybe I sound as selfish but my mental situation is not good. I want to pass happy time but it is driving me crazy. I am so in need for your suggestions. How I should behave? Is it bad that I acccept this from her?
Thank you for reading and maybe my English if it is not good.