I have no idea what I'm going to do! After months of poking and prodding and thinking my issues were just hormonal, the doctor confirmed today that I have Lupus. I had suspected this for quite some time, but after having so many doctors tell me that I was imagining things, I chalked my symptoms up to stress.
I've read so many blogs, articles and threads about how the caregiver's health declines, but I never expected to be one of the physically unhealthy caregivers. In fact, I assumed that I was one of the younger caregivers at 40 (and not even a full-time caregiver at that).
So, of course, I have been researching like crazy. Clearly, I'm going to need to change my lifestyle... but HOW?
Change to an organic, less processed diet? OK... can't afford that. Dad doesn't eat that stuff. How am I going to continue hanging out with him without seeming "uppity" because I can't eat the food?
Reduce stress... HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Exercise more.... I repeat HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
Thankfully, Dad doesn't understand all of this, and I REALLY don't want anyone to know. If any of the "family" finds out, they will somehow make this my fault or accuse me of seeking sympathy or even making it up. After all, they think I'm doing such a horrible job at this (apparently, I should take care of him 24/7 and "pay myself" instead of working my "fancy" job with my "fancy" education)
So much for reducing stress. I don't know what to do...