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Lea, great that you’re back, not the least reason being that I went to Target after a frustrating day at work and when I got out of the car, there was a shiny dime right by my shoe on the parking lot pavement! If anyone happened to be looking, they saw the biggest grin on my face! I scooped it up and said a quick prayer for you while walking into Target. And I’m sure that parking lot prayers count for a lot!
The wreath is gorgeous, what a talent you have!
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Welcome back Lea! Good to see you back.
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Your digital return makes me think about Pink's "Get This Party Started". So glad you're back... good to learn what went on behind the scenes. Sounds like things could be better, but you're here and that's what counts. Welcome back! xox
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Woo-Hoo, you're back!! I've got a big 'honkin smile on my face! Missed you! Prayers continue dear Lealonnie❤️
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I think Lea's stepdaughter believes in kitchen fairies. Boy she must have been shocked when those 8 bags of groceries didnt magically turn into dinner.
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Sp....you are killin me ova here! 🤣 I'll bet you're right omg!! Here she was thinking the dizzy stepmother on a frame walker who hasn't cooked in 4 months would cook vittles for 6!!! They coulda gone frog gigging out back where the beaver damned up the lake again, come to think of it 🙄 Good free protein...

Btw, out of 7 kids between us (2 me and 5 Chuck), 4.5 are loving and kind. The .5 is up and down/in and out at any given time, thus rating a half.
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Lea: Prayers sent, dear lady.
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sp and lea, that's funny!!!! 🤣🤣🤣

Today this scripture spoke to me -

Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him, and he will act.”
Psalm 37:5 

Amen and amen.

Praying fir a better day for you, Lea, relief frim the back pain and from the effects of decreasing thee prednisone. Also, of course for a clear PET scan.

May God give you wisdom re the IVIG. Hard to go through that when you don't see any positive results.

"Eat glitter for breakfast and shine all day" ✨✨✨
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Scripture du jour:

"Thank you for responding to me;
    you’ve truly become my salvation!
...This is God’s work.
    We rub our eyes — we can hardly believe it!
This is the very day God acted —
    let’s celebrate and be festive!"

- Psalm 118:24 (The Message)
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Sp, that was funny. You may have hit the nail on the head. 🤣
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Statistically 4.5 kids out of 7 is pretty darn good!!! I'm thinking grocery bag girl (GBG) does not fall into the 4.5 category. LOL. Have a better day than yesterday and an even better one tomorrow.
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Hi all. It feels good to be here and engaged again, I must say.

Tomorrow at 12noon is my PET scan and I'm hoping my glucose is under 200 ( required in order to proceed since glucose is used in iv) and prednisone screws with blood sugar, and that the lab person can find a usable vein to put the IV line in ( again thanks to hi dose steroids). Once the results are in, THEN the next steps of treatment or no treatment can be determined. There is a clinical trial set to start next week at UCHEALTH that I qualify for bc I have the required melanoma mutation, we just don't know yet IF treatment is required right now. Remission may be at play here, with God's help.

Fg, I'm of the praying breed and have been doing a lot of it lately, especially during my wide awake periods between 1/2 am and 6 am each night. 😣

Ty, GBG does not fall into the 4.5 category, nope. I'm sure they'll show up here later on at some point, though. It's still early.

The DD who lives here 75 min away is one and hasn't seen her dad in over 1 yr nor spoken to me at all in since chewing me out on mother's day last year when Chuck was rushed back to the hospital for a 2nd surgery. Her petty issues keep interfering w our life and death situations, we have to remember. She's this-close to having done irreparable damage to her relationship with her father now, and has already done so with me and my DD, her step sister. Oh well, poor choices often have poor consequences. And to think ALL this started over covid jabs bc Mayo required us to have them, and since she and her child didn't, Mayo said they couldn't stay here at our house as guests. Which "hurt her feelings" the new buzz words of the times. Nevermind they stayed at her brothers home and we visited with them a lot in spite of it all. Then she was jelly that my DD came to AZ with us as "NOT A MAYO NURSE" to help out, when she was issued an invite to come herself but refused. I myself held out the proverbial olive branch to her 5x or more over the past year, just to have it thrown in my face how they "were unwelcome in my home" due to vax status, so why is it ok now to visit? How do YOU spell dense? If Mayo told us to dance around naked in public doing the samba at the mall in order for Chuck to qualify for a liver transplant, we'd have done THAT, too! 😑 The procedure saved her father's LIFE, HELLO?? But let's dwell on Hurt Feelings for over a year, shall we?

Anyway, she can kiss my grits it's just that she hurts Chuck so badly in HIS time of need. That's the part which bothers me so much since he's already in such a stressful situation. It boggles my mind when family members can be so cruel.

Geaton, ty for posting the scripture du jour so faithfully.

Golden, I choked a lil on that glitter this morning as I sprinkled it on my English muffin.....😂

Gershun, what did the MRI reveal, anything?

Thanks for the nice words about my jewelry wreath. The pieces are fun to make and now I'll have to look thru the hoard to sort out items for the bridal bouquet for DD. They're not yet engaged but have moved in together in Jan. The plans are in the works which is exciting.

My dizziness today seems better so I'm going with it and feeling grateful for ANY TINY REPRIEVE IN SYMPTOMS. Tomorrow is 11 weeks of this nonsense.

To all I have not mentioned specifically, ty for being part of this thread. You are valued and appreciated by moi.

Be back later.
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Lea,

It’s wonderful to see you posting again and reading your words. You were never out of our thoughts though, even when you weren’t able to post.

I’ll be praying with you for the very best news concerning your PET scan.

As always, I send you all my love and best wishes. Also, lots of hugs!

Know that you are an inspiration to all of us.
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I thought of you this morning Lealonnie while reading one of my devotions and I'm going to share parts from it in hopes that it will be an encouragement to you as you go into tomorrow.
The title of it is "Trusting God With the Outcome." That alone says it all.
The Bible verse is Psalm 37:5...."Commit your way to to the Lord; trust in Him, and He will act." This commitment is a trust in Yahweh, not ourselves, to produce the outcome. We provide a surrendered heart, and God provides the outcome of our stories.
"Letting go and letting God" is difficult, but the good news is that surrender brings more freedom, purpose and fulfillment than striving and controlling ever could.
Because God created us and loves us, we can trust that He has a better outcome for our lives than we could ever imagine. Because God knows all and sees all, we can trust that even if our stories don't turn out the way we originally thought, He is a redeemer who works all for our good and His glory(Romans 8:28).
We are safe in surrendering it all to Him, and we are free not to have it all under control because we serve a God who does.

So I'm joining other fellow believers on here in lifting you up in prayer for your appointment tomorrow, and we are trusting that God will act on your behalf, and that He will continue to write a beautiful story for your life.
Lord help Lealonnie to trust You even in the unknown and help her to walk in faith, even when she can't see. In Jesus' name, Amen.
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Hey, girl.

Praying here for tomorrow.

I’m with you in the Funky Veins Club. Once, for a contrast MRI, three techs each tried two times. All unsuccessfully. After those 6 painful sticks, they gave up, and the doc never got his contrast report. 😣

Techs usually don’t believe me when I tell them where IVs work and don’t work. 🤦🏻‍♀️

So, all that to say, that I can pray with great understanding that you will have an easy, breezy time starting that PET scan. 😃
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No offense to all here but at least presently I don't think there could have been a more missed person than you were last week. At least it coincided with your recovery from rather major surgery. I too love your bouquet.

We are having a small service for my mother this Saturday. My children will be here and one local relative but that's it. We are filming it for family across the country. I was told that it was discovered that she had passed when a nurse went into her room for her very late night dose of pain medication. Somehow that makes me feel that she went in her sleep and likely not aware she was on the verge of dying

I too along with so many others will be hoping for positive news for you. I too (alot of too's but it is what keeps coming to my mind) also find the bags of food story awfully amazing. You both deserve much better. Hope you have a good night if that's at all possible. You are truly very special.
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Happy you are back Lea. You were missed. Hope you are doing okay. Sending prayers your way.
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Actually your bags of food story reminds me of when my mom was still alive. The sibs didn't do much. One day my mom told me my brother had come by and dropped off frozen pizzas and a bag of tomatoes for her. LOL
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Riverdale.....your post to me during my absence was one of 2 that made me cry with good emotions; Send's frog story was the other. We know one another here online for years lots of us "old timers" and have been thru major hurdles together. You felt it when my mother finally passed, I felt it when yours finally passed. Nobody can "erase" the friendships we forge, or the support networks we build, which is all based on who we are as real people. I'm honored to call you my friend and to know that I was missed the past week. Thank you. I missed you all too, more than I thought I would. I don't feel alone when I come here to chat, and that means a lot for me who tends to get stuck in my head a lot.

You and your mom will be in my thoughts and prayers this Saturday as you have the memorial service for her. As for my own mother, I'm relieved her suffering is over, that she blessedly passed in her sleep w/o a clue of what was happening until she was enveloped in pure love, light, and no more earthly pain ever again. Amen.

I am bringing my tablet along to the PET scan tomorrow so I'll post while I lounge on the recliner for 90 min. I actually have a good feeling about the results based on having so little pain and a weight gain, appetite rebound, good blood test numbers, etc.

The silly thing about the spine surgery is that I'm even further restricted in BLTs......bending, lifting and twisting.....for 2 weeks! So butterfingers here is dropping everything I touch putting the grabber thingy to work quite a bit. Except for the dang phone which I've dropped at least 50x so far and Chuck has to be the grabber thingy for me. 🙄

Its storming and hailing here today.......my DIL got word the stepfamily MAY be returning to Denver tonight. She said to pls do so by 7pm or else "the inn is closed for the evening". Good on HER. But this leaves me wondering if they'll plan to show up HERE tonight or worse yet, tomorrow morning before we leave for the scan. Chuck texted her at 10 am asking for plans and she said she "may drive to Denver alone" which did not happen. Then she ghosted him ever since. Disrespectful behavior at its worst.

I'll be back tomorrow. Have a great evening all! 😘
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Sending good vibes for your pet scan this morning. Wear extra bling to your appointment for good luck. I don't have any bling emojis on this cheap phone so you'll have to settle for a slice of🍕 a 🥝 and some✨✨
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Love and clear wishes
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Thinking of you this morning, Lea. Can't wait to hear some good news!
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Believing you will get a great report today because HE is faithful and has heard all the prayers for your healing.
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Good morning, Lea!!! Believing for a good outcome for the PET scan and continued decrease of the dizziness.

Sparkle like your beautiful wreath this morning. 🎇🌟🎇.

“Hear my cry, O God; Attend to my prayer. From the end of the earth I will cry to You, when my heart is overwhelmed; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Psalm 61:1
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Scripture du jour

This morning I was delighted to find it had rained overnight (after many days of hopeful but erroneous weather predicting... and we need the rain).

It's a sweet thought to know that even God experiences delight: in people and actions and results. I'm praying that LL will experience delight starting today. And for her to remember that "mercy is [His] specialty".

"Where is the god who can compare with you —
    wiping the slate clean of guilt,
Turning a blind eye, a deaf ear,
    to the past sins of your purged and precious people?
You don’t nurse your anger and don’t stay angry long,
    for mercy is your specialty. That’s what you love most.
And compassion is on its way to us."

- Micah 7:18-20 (The Message)
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No bling of any kind allowed in scans or else I'd have to undress and take it all off sp......but hey, thanks for the pizza & kiwi since it's 12:22 and I am hungry right now 🤣

Sitting in this recliner after the meds were injected. Drove in a huge downpour to get here after an UGLY morning thanks to more b.s from the stepfamily and Chuck. 😑 He comes into my room at 9:05 after I'd achieved a relaxed state of mind, to announce the stepfamily would try to arrive at our home by 9:30. I was like WHAT??????? I'd told them all the PET scan was this morning and due to stress, no company please. So I said "now I'm supposed to jump up, get dressed and ready to visit in 20 minutes?" Chuck yells JUST DON'T BOTHER, turns and walks off slamming my door! I really felt like my head was going to explode at that moment.

I got right on my walker and hightailed it into the kitchen for a showdown. Dizzy as hell and my back aching like mad. Chuck is throwing stuff around, having a meltdown, saying everything he does is wrong and playing the old I'm A POS Card he plays soooo well. And often. I told him his DAUGHTER is doing everything wrong fgs and just tell her NO. Which he did. So idk if they're coming later or what, and I don't care, but I'm fed up with all this crap and Chucks behavior in general lately. I've bent over backwards to thank him for every thing he does, to not complain, to not point out imperfections, to respect him.....but he's turned into an angry and resentful person now about the burden I've become to him over the past few months. With no end in sight, either! The worst case scenario is playing out. Nobody should have to be a caregiver of this caliber, I know that. But I hope this hideous situation w the dizziness resolves itself at some point to release BOTH of us from this situation. Or he'll wind up hating me and that's worse than cancer killing me.

I've been walking around on eggshells at home so I dont set him off, trying to keep MYSELF together at the same time too, which is not easy. I'm watching him go from a happy easy going person into a bitter one who never laughs anymore. Yeah, this has been hard for both of us, no doubt, but me trying to manage his meltdowns on top of my own issues is beginning to make me question everything right now.

We will see what this scan shows and go from there.

I pray for some good news we both need ...some hope, I guess. Stress is a killer of a thing. Add in clueless and disrespectful visitors into the mix and voila, a big mess ensues.

I'll update when the results come in.
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Lealonnie,
I get it, I hear you. I understand.
It's all too hard on both you and Chuck.
Add "visitors", and it is a recipe for stress.

You are under no obligation to see or entertain anyone.

Is it perhaps time to call in a temporary caregiver?

Just get today done, it's all you can do, and that is okay.
Stay the course.
Don't allow the impossible times to sway you.

That is where God has a plan for you.
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So sorry . I hope this PET scan is the beginning of better days to come. (((Hugs))). Do you think it would help a little if you hire some housekeeping help in the house . Or maybe for landscapers for outside ? Or maybe a nurses aide ? I don’t know exactly what would help take away some of the work and stress for both of you . Maybe you already have help
coming, idk . And you can limit visitors as you wish . Just trying to help . 🫤🤷‍♀️
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LL, stress and anxiety are killers for sure. Bodies and marriages respond negatively to them.

I'm wondering if you can get some help in and maybe send Chuck to a hotel for some R and R for a few days?

Do you have a SW attached to your oncology team who can suggest a way of de-stressing this situation?

You guys have had more trials than Job in the last 18 months.

Praying for peace of mind; healing of body and spirit for you both today.
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Oh (((((((Lea))))). No words right now, just heartfelt (((((((hugs)))))) and prayers. You didn't need this! You both need a break!
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