Always seem to be apologizing to others.
Yep, that's me. Apologize-r extraordinaire, Or maybe I just have a lot of excuses. I just read the article on care takers blow ups and apologizing. Wow, how did they know? My brothers adopted daughter whom is now 31 years old made a comment to me 6 months ago about how I took care of HER Grandmother, well, that did it for me. I let her have it full force and she gave it back. We were done and over and life would have went on but my brother, his wife had to butt in. They never asked me or my mom what happened they just listened to what my niece had to say. This is why my brothers don't help me. They are mad at me! You'd think they'd love their mother enough to help her out by helping me but no..... just how many ways do I have to say I am SORRY to people!!! The past 2 Christmas's I have been here. I always make a big Christmas but I am dreading it this year. It will be just me and mom. I can't stand the thought of being here either. I've tried so hard to make things right but I cannot win with these people here. I can see how easy it is to drive everyone away from you when you're stressed out and overwhelmed. :(((
I don't get why I am so afraid to pack this place up, sell it and leave!?1? Least I'd have my job of 13 plus years back that I loved so much if I took mom and left. I asked her doctor about it and she looked at me weirdly saying it would be hard for her to adjust but she would eventually.
My head hurts, my eyes hurt from lack of sleep and I think I am in a super pissy mood today and don't want to get up off the couch, maybe I will just take the damn day off!! We have pizza :) I always feel like I have to do things and entertain mom all the time. She never EVER naps.
Thank God for the dogs, least they don't get snippy with her :)