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If I listened to what my mother wanted to do, she'd be 'living in her own home' at over 94 years old with advanced dementia, in a wheelchair and incontinent, with afib, CHF and GERD to where she's either constipated, has diarrhea all the time, is vomiting or requiring meds for all the nausea. And that's just the tip of the iceberg. She's fallen 73x, 33 of those times while in Memory Care the past 23 months. So, she has very poor decision making skills and very poor judgement skills, to put it mildly. As her POA, I make decisions FOR her in an effort to keep her safe and as much out of harm's way as humanly possible. That means she doesn't get to live in 'her own home' or with me, because I can't handle all of her issues, nor can I pick her 200lbs of dead weight off of the floor every time she falls, so she lives in Memory Care till her $$ runs out, then it's off to Skilled Nursing with Medicaid.

We don't always get what we want in life, but with any luck at all, we often get what we need.

As an only child, I'm it. I get to make ALL the decisions ALL the time, and it's no fun at all. I also get to take all the brunt of her anger and frustration, all the blame for everything including all of her misery and complaining. It is what it is. I don't desire things to be this way either, but I won the booby prize in this life, I guess.

Make the right decision for your mother's safety and for your sanity. Don't look back and just expect her wrath, if she's the kind of woman my mother is. At least she'll be safe in AL and you'll get to move on with your own life, to some degree, while managing her life from your desktop and putting out the fires that crop up in managed care. And all the rest of the commitments you'll have which are plenty, believe me. Getting her into AL doesn't mean you won't have work to do still. It's just not hands-on care you'll be doing anymore.

Good luck
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Beatty May 31, 2021
Big sighs..

Such a tale. What a journey but handled so well.

My friend's FIL similar. Still deemed competent so has decided to discharge from actuate rehab to his home this week - rather than respite or SNH as Dr advised.

Is currently wheelchair user with # pelvis, # femur, multi other issues + umpteen falls history.

Is there care at home? Nope. Elderly wife in hospital too. Does he expect family to just make everything magically ok? Yep.

I'm sure his family WOULD like him to see reason... But they know this is out of their control. They will use their OWN reason to let the real world in. Let the world provide his options.

As you have done Lea with such skill & sence.

I tell my own kids now - just arrange what's necessary for me in the future (if I lose all reason). Do not sacrifice your life.
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I'll be blunt here: it falls on you because you are doing all the care duties. Without your assistance, your mother would have no option but to move to AL, so the decision entirely rests with you given that mother has no intention of moving under the present arrangement.
You have been the carer for some time - have you discussed/considered in earlier times the 'cut-off' points for when she would be moved? Mobility (or lack of it) is on my list as "unmanageable", as is bowel incontinence, and recognition - these are my limits, sadly not up to the devotion of many other posters, but beyond my tolerance and I have these objective triggers to alert me to not coping (since by that stage I may not be thinking too clearly!).
You have clearly given much of yourself to care for your mother - it does not have to be at your personal suffering/loss or a 'forever' obligation. Seek affirmation of your intention from family and decide this together to provide some reassurance that you are merely the representative for your mother's future care.
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BurntCaregiver May 31, 2021
Kantankorus,

Your response is excellent. I think you're absolutely right about caregivers setting boundaries in advance about what level of care will be unmanageable for them.
This way everyone is on the same page.
I like this idea so much and I think all people who are considering becoming a family caregiver to an elderly person, should most certainly give consideration to what you have done.
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Whathappened, reading your profile, it sounds as though you want someone else to tell mom she is moving to AL.

Do you have POA?

Have you picked out a facility?

Don't try to convince or reason with mom. She has dementia.

Don't try to reason with family. They don't get it.

Set a date, get mom evaluated by your chosen facility. Tell mom you need a break and that she will be well tsken care of in this new "senior apartment".

Get your life back on track.
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This is your decision to make, because it directly effects your life. Don’t expect your mom to make decisions that you would like her to make. Her decisions may be the opposite of what you desire in life.

I was a total wreck by the time I found this forum. It truly helped me to see people on this forum who had either been in my shoes and were able to eventually change their circumstances or they had been successful in preventing stressful situations from occurring in the first place. We can learn what to do that will help us and what not to repeat, due to it being the wrong choice.

Don’t beat yourself up about where you are now. What good would that do? Everyone on this planet has made wrong decisions at some point in their lives. Also, don’t expect things to improve overnight. Nothing happens overnight.

Everything starts with just one thought, one step at the time. All of your steps will eventually end up in a positive direction.

So, start thinking seriously about what changes are needed in your life. Then you can make plans to arrange for those changes to occur. Of course, these changes will include your mom. She’s a major roadblock in achieving balance in your life.

Look at the entire picture, your end goal, and figure out the steps that you need to take to get there. If you feel overwhelmed and don’t know where to start, seek the help of a social worker to help you plan. It never hurts to have a neutral, objective viewpoint on the situation.

Best wishes to you and your mom.
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I'm single, no kids, predeceased by my brother and my sister not the kind of person to step up. Many times I have longed for someone, anyone, who I could lean on for support: a cheerleader, a sounding board for my ideas, a helping hand to bring them to fruition. But we only need to read on the forum to see the flip side, the people in a poster's life who have actively become a stumbling block to change and progress. The grass is always greener - we just have to deal with the hand we are dealt.
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BurntCaregiver May 31, 2021
cwillie,

You're right about that one, my friend.
We often just have to deal with the hand we're dealt.
This being said, no one has to sacrifice their entire life to caregiving. Nor should they.
No one should be judged for refusing to take it on either.
So many of us here just had the caregiver role thrown in our laps and it wasn't our choice to take it on.
One lesson so many family caregivers never learn is knowing when to quit. A caregiver should be able to quit whenever they believe it's time to without guilt, societal chastisement, and certainly without family judgment and shaming.
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Have you had a needs assessment done? This is the 1st step to ensure that she is being placed in a facility that can meet her care needs.

Your moms needs have decided that she now needs a village. Please do not feel guilty that you are not a village.

You will be able to be her daughter again and that is the role that you were born to. You will advocate for her, you will provide enrichment and you will be able to provide a loving, happy smile to her. These are invaluable for her and she will benefit from getting them from you.

It is okay that she is being placed where she can receive the level of care that she now needs. It is okay!

You don't really have to tell her anything, take her for lunch at the facility, enlist some friends and family to move her stuff in and after lunch take her to her room. We tend to project our fears and stress on our loved ones and one thing that I have seen with my loved ones suffering from this damnable disease, they read your emotions and respond similarly. So, be as upbeat and nonchalant about this and when you leave, that's when you can bawl your eyes out. For her, only smiles and wellbeing. The staff will help you get her situated. Of course this will be hard, all big changes in life are.

You have given her the gift of your care, now it is time to take care of you. You wouldn't be any use to her if you became a statistic.

May The Lord give you strength, peace and wisdom for this new season in your and your mom's lives.

Edit: I just want to clarify, moms needs and level of care required are the decision makers in this situation. You have no choice, her needs require greater care than you can provide. The disease has made the decision.
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This sounds as though you have family members who you think should be involved, and they are no where to be seen. Or if the doctor should take control and tell you what to do. Many people find that siblings can see what’s coming, and run away. And it really isn’t the doctor’s responsibility. You may indeed be in this on your own, as you live with her.

Have a good scan through the Care Topics button at the top RHS of the screen. Click on any letter of the alphabet (eg M for Medicaid or P for Power of Attorney) and read about all the things that you don’t know about. When you have ‘educated’ yourself, please come back to ask us for any more information that you can’t find, or that is special for your own circumstances. Or even just for more information about Why Me? Best wishes, Margaret
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jacobsonbob Jun 2, 2021
Yes, it's probably the flip side of the "possession is nine-tenths ownership" way of thinking.
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Who else would be/could be involved in the decision? Is there other family? Are you doing the caregiving. If you are the only family, the only caregiver, sadly the decision falls on your shoulders. It is a decision for YOUR life as well as for hers. You certainly should feel free to discuss with her doctor so you have some support and opinion. I wish you luck.
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What is it you need? Someone to help research the options? Someone to help choose the path? Someone to plot the steps required to get there?

Who's in your team? Partner? Siblings? Area of Aging? Social Worker? Elder Atty?

Do you have the authority to make the big changes? Who has enduring POA?
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Imho, this was me - after living out of state with my late mother for an extended period, my brother told me that I must pack up my mother's items for her to move to an AL. I was "running on fumes," exhausted. I was lucky to even locate her things to pack, let alone a box to put them in.
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