I take care of my elderly mother who is in the middle stage of Dementia. I am finding myself being more short with her and fussing at her more than usual. I don't like the person I have become. I was always even tempered and patient...now I am screaming and yelling at her most days and being angry that my father did not make better arrangements for her and him when they were young. She states that it is my duty to take care of her and that she is not leaving her home. The respite care giver I interviewed from the city to come in and supervise her while I am gone really is of little help. They can not administer medication nor can they really get involved in helping my mother with any of her needs. It is just someone who merely babysits in my absence. Other in home caregiving costs a fortune. So I continue to be frustrated and angry and sleep every chance I can get to avoid the pain of doing this alone and not being able to have a life of my own. It has been 10 years now and even the meds I take are not helping that much. I want to be the nurturing daughter but from a distance. Thanks for letting me vent.