My mom was in my last 18 mo with the last month seeing decline in her health. She slowly stopped eating, lost weight, slept a lot. We did comfort care only and then hospice for one eeek. Last month two days in a row she was unresponsive, dusky, skin clammy then she woke up and talked with us. Over last few weeks she did sleep a lot but would wake up and have a few short words with us. Once hospice got involved they upped the morphine and she was less restless but slept more. She had started on morphine because when we thought she was dying those couple times she was very agitated and restless and I didn’t want her to be agitated. I can’t let go of the nagging question if we hadn’t done drugs round the clock maybe I’d still have her? Over past year we’ve had many tough days, days where I cry all way home and actually wished for a peaceful death in her sleep, it’s eating me up now. Can’t sleep, feel like I’m having heart attack sometimes and have gone from can’t eat to can’t stop eating. They gave me Xanax but am afraid to NEED a drug to get thru the day. My husband is retiring today and next week my daughter is moving 1000 miles away after graduation from college! How much stress can one do?