My father has had years of heavy drinking and it has caught up to him. He has been at a very nice hospital that has done everything they can, but they have realized they can not reverse what has been done to his liver. He is in and out of remembering what’s going on, but isn’t the same. He has swollen blood vessels in his throat preventing him to be able to eat. He had feeding tubes, but for the comfort stage those were taken out and he is ok liquids. His body is building up liquid so that is now monitored also. I’m having a hard time excepting this.
The swollen blood vessels in dad's throat are known as varices, and go along with advanced liver disease. If one of those pop, it can cause a life threatening situation. Combined with dad not being able to eat as a result of the varices (which are surgically removed in healthier people like my sister in law used to be), he'd need a feeding tube to get proper nutrition. But as you know, feeding tubes are not conducive with hospice. If he can manage liquids, bring him a milkshake when you go visit; not only does it taste good but it's loaded with energy producing calories too. The cold liquid should also feel good in his tender esophagus.
Since your dad has all these serious issues going on, nobody can say how long he has left to live. Hospice can usually give you a good idea once he's on board with them as they've seen so many elders in the transitional stage of life that it's easy for them to recognize how long a person has left. Make sure they're on board with keeping him comfortable, that's the main thing.
It's hard for us 'children' to accept our parents imminent passing; I went through it with both of mine and it was difficult both times. I too visited mom & dad daily during the last weeks/days of their lives. I am sending up some prayers that God has mercy on both of you, spares dad pain, and you the anguish of watching him decline. Please be sure to take care of yourself too as you go through this difficult process.
Hospice can probably give you an idea based on your dads actual condition.
I am so sorry. This is a difficult time. It is really important that you take care of you with rest and good nutrition, it is easy to get overly exhausted and not know what end is up. Say everything you want said, mostly it's about being there and remembering happy times together. Just loving him. Great big warm hug!