I know what to say to myself, I only wished that it eased the guilt more than it does. I've only done it a few times, hopefully it will get better in the doing. Ivam very aware of a real decline in my on health. Pain, stress, sleep, stomach. If I don't start doing it more it's going to get worse. How have you managed it? I've gone to the doctor when I need to and have meds for the symptoms but meds don't help the feelings that cause things. I have doctors and caseworkers for my bipolar and homecare assistance.