My LO has suffered with chronic leukemia and small cell lymphoma for the past 7 years and now has morphed into a more aggressive cancer called Richter’s Transformation which has a very poor prognosis. He has gone through 3 immunotherapy clinical trials and two chemotherapy treatments all which have run their course and then failed or started to effect other organs. My LO refused the offer of a fourth clinical trial which would have put him in the hospital 3-4 days each week for the next 5 cycles (months) because of other conditions such as CHF, kidney stage 3, AFib, edema and diabetes which had to be monitored while on these drugs. He has chosen to have more of a quality of his years rather than quantity of years. I agree with him. However, now I find myself so sad wondering what will happen to me when he passes. I went food shopping today and realized that everything I brought was for myself because he no longer has an appetite for anything he use to like. He eats sparsely, and has a diabetic supplement once in a while. This realization really hit me really hard that he will soon pass and not be physically present. I will be 70 years old in November but I am a young 70 who could pass for someone in their 50s. I worried that I will not know how to navigate being single again. My child are in their 40s and 50s and have their own lives with their careers and children. I don’t want to be a drag on their lifestyle. I’m scared and worried that I will be at a lost on how to live again. This is a second marriage for both of us. We have had a fantastic marriage and will be married 26 years in October 7. We have been together for a total of 35 years. For clarification, I have never been by myself because In my first marriage I married young straight from my parents house at age 18 then divorced after 11 years of marriage and moved back into my parents home with my kids. Then I met and married my current husband (LO). So I have never lived alone and by myself. I’m a little scared. Any suggestions?