Hi, I’m so happy I found this forum. I don’t know where to begin so I’ll just let it out... I’m the only child of two aging parents, and I’ve barely gotten my life started, yet I live with the constant fear of a future where I lose them much earlier than any of my peers. I know that sounds unrational but my current position in life exacerbates my anxiety. I’m a poor college kid, my family is small... very small, and it wasn’t until the last few years when my mother’s memory has started to fade and my father has become increasing sedentary and unhealthy that I realized that I could be facing a future where I need to care for them, or god.. I not even think of it—lose them. And then I would be alone. Alone in a world I’m not prepared to be helpless and isolated in. This fear has me crying to sleep some nights when my father gets a bad cold he can’t shake for months and has to spend days in bed, or when my mom can’t remember what she said to me not 5 minutes earlier.
Anyone please, I need advice on how to handle this crippling anxiety because it’s destroying me inside and affecting my ability to cope at school.
Also plz don’t be afraid to be straight with me. I need to hear the hard truths from people who understand or have experienced my situation so I can start to find some closure in how I’ll handle it.
Thanks for listening. Your advice is a blessing.