Let me give a little background. I found work nearly 10 years ago at a facility working with special needs adult clients. I absolutely love my job & feel I am very good at it, have had loads of training & putting a lot of my energy towards work.
Then my father died & my mother didn't want to live alone (she never has in her whole life.) I agreed to move in with her to keep her surroundings the same. Then I cut back on hours at work from 24 hour shifts to 8 hour shifts as she would be upset & aggitated while I was gone. My brother said he would help with her care but his actions show he won't. At best, he'll call once a month if I tell him to do it. I tell him to do anything else & get the silent treatment. I feel I have very little energy left for myself. Work & homelife has merged into one giant list of chores, entertaining others & monitoring their behaviors. I have zero patience with my Mom now & I'm so disappointed with how I have begun to snap back at her. I try to take 10 minutes in the morning & afternoon for myself but feel this crushing guilt, that I don't find it refreshing. What is wrong with me? I can't figure out who to ask or where to get help with what to do with getting all the things that are new to me done. Mom refuses to go to a lawyer, her doctor, the dentist, the bank, etc. Any advice is much appreciated! I feel I can handle all of these issues at work but mentally fall apart & go numb with the overwhelming task of caring for Mom alone.