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It has been nearly 10 years since my mother was diagnosed with Dementia/Alzheimer's that has changed our lives. The hardest thing were the conversations with her describing her journey into this unknown disease.


Our family dynamics - I am the oldest of the children and the cinderella of the family.


My parents would have family vacations with my sister and her family, while my family wasn't invited. Parents would visit my sister's home and wouldn't visit or call my home often, but expected me to visit their home. When asked what the issue was, I never received an answer.


I am educated, a working professional, divorced mother, and cancer survivor. While living through cancer treatments I received very little familial support. My Dad assisted with taking me to treatments for 4 days a month for 6 months while I was in the process of a divorce. At the time my child was a toddler. Fast forward nearly 12 years later, my mother's alzheimer's has been a challenge over the last five years because my family refused. In a past life, I was involved with aging care and knew what was to come as we enter the 10th year of Mom's disease. She is healthy with the exception of the disease.


The last five years have been stressful because family refuses to plan for more than the immediate moment. My sister and I are not close and she doesn't want to collaborate. She wants to handle things but clearly cannot. My father wants me to fix it but wants everything done on his schedule, when and where it suits him. He is angry and has stated life wasn't supposed to happen this way. That he and my mother should be enjoying their retirement and living life to the fullest.


His anger has been directed at me over the last 5-6 years because in his mind, I should stop my life and focus on he and my mother. Working a six-figure job, with some travel, a middle-schooler, and custody issues with my ex, his expectation is that I need to give more. Caring for my mother after 10 hour workdays at their home or having her dropped off at my house during the last 3 hours of my business day, bathing, feeding, then driving her home and putting her to bed in the evenings, when he refused to stop working because it gave him a break from her, he stated that I needed to do more.


He recently retired and has become the primary caregiver, since COVID occurred. When he retired, I backed off and allowed he and my sister to pick up the slack. I stopped and stepped away for my mental and physical health as a cancer survivor. My child and I have pre-existing conditions and I am putting us first and allowing my sibling to take over. I have towed the load since childhood and am over ALL of it. I love my mother and father dearly, but spiritually can no longer handle the insane family dynamics that have exacerbated during COVID.


Regardless of our family dynamics, I love my mom. I have done all that I can to assist with planning and have been met with resistance, it seems every step of the way. Now that the train wreck is here, why can't I do more to provided care for my mother is the question I get. Well, that's what service providers are for. We had a wonderful woman that cared for my mother but was treated with such disrespect from my father she finally quit after four years. When I have attempted to assist with finding another long term caregiver, my sister wants to take over and the result is a temporary person who doesn't work out. It is the saddest and craziest situation that I have ever seen.


I want to see my mother more but have difficulty interacting with my father because of his explosive temper and verbal abuse. My mother needs to be in a memory care facility. My sister and father have power of attorney.


How are others coping in situations where the family dynamics are horrific and exacerbate the caregiving and planning process?

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First, you have my sympathy for having been more or less stuck in a horrible situation.

This is another view – ignore it if it annoys you, but it might help. You say that you love both your parents dearly. It is very hard to see why you tell yourself that you love your father dearly. Surely not ‘because of his explosive temper and verbal abuse’. Surely not when ‘his anger has been directed at me over the last 5-6 years because in his mind, I should stop my life and focus on he and my mother’. It might help to face the fact that your father is NOT loveable. We all have special relationships with our parents, even bad parents, but that special relationship is NOT necessarily love. FOG – Fear Obligation and Guilt – are what keep carers stuck in completely unreasonable pain.

Perhaps you DO love your mother. But remember that she has been ‘on his side’ all their marriage, including all the times when you didn’t get the invitations and support that went to your sister. When one parent is worse, it’s easy to see the ‘better one’ as the victim. The ‘victim’ has been complicit in what has happened. At least earlier in her dementia, mother was there too when you were ‘met with resistance, it seems every step of the way’. How much more do you think you owe?

Think carefully about the earlier replies. If you can’t take part in reasonable planning, if your help isn’t appreciated and is never enough, just stop. You aren’t helping, it’s not working, and you are only hurting yourself and your child. You are an ‘educated, a working professional’ with enough brains to see what to do. Just get out of the mess!
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jacobsonbob May 2021
Margaret, this is an excellent response! I believe this also applies to a lot of other situations in life.
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A big hug from another planner.

I too was not allowed to drive the bus (as I call it). I didn't like the route they took, they wouldn't listen to my directions, I didn't feel safe up the back - so I got off.

Lead, Follow or Get (outta the way). I had to 'Get'.

Now just standing at the sidelines & will call for assistance once they crash. All I can do.

Peace to you 🙏🕊️
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SamTheManager May 2021
Wow. This whole reply is just...I don't even know how to describe the insight you just provided. I, too, am a planner, although I hadn't described it that way or seen it described that way. Lead, Follow or Get!
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Margaret's answer was spot on. Stop tolerating the angry outbursts. During the 10 years, you helped out...how much help was your sister? Maybe it is her turn. Most importantly stand up to your father. Next time there is an outburst get up and leave. Even if you are in the middle of things. Whatever you are doing handoff to him and tell him you aren't putting up with his behavior anymore. You are done for the day. You will try again in a few days. He behaves this way because he is allowed to behave this way.
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I am very sorry that you are in the middle of this family drama. You have offered your services in the past and for whatever reason your sister didn’t appreciate it. I am so sick of siblings turning everything into a competition. It’s petty and ridiculous. All siblings have had issues. No one has a perfect family where everyone agrees all the time.

We can’t force others to heed our advice. People who think they know best or are too proud to ask for help, usually figure out what we went through when they have to deal with it on their own.

You are not under any obligation to care for your parents. It becomes harder with each passing year. You most likely feel guilty because they aren’t listening to your advice and suffering with consequences, but that isn’t your fault. You haven’t done anything wrong. Some will say that you are grieving for what you once had with your mom. She is no longer the same mother from several years back.

Please don’t do anything that your heart isn’t in. That isn’t good for anyone.
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disgustedtoo May 2021
"Please don’t do anything that your heart isn’t in."

Also, since sis and dad have POAs, the ball is in their court.
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I am SO GLAD that you have already stepped away! Don't step back in!

MargaretMcKen wrote: "But remember that she has been ‘on his side’ all their marriage, including all the times when you didn’t get the invitations and support that went to your sister. When one parent is worse, it’s easy to see the ‘better one’ as the victim. The ‘victim’ has been complicit in what has happened."

This is SUCH a good point! Sometimes I point this sort of thing out when a poster will bemoan how awful a sibling is in regards to caregiving, or mooching off a parent, or whatever. And that dear Mama must still have every whim satisfied by the martyr poster. They need to remember that "dear Mama" "or papa" brought that sibling up to be that way, or at least tolerated/condoned it. So why should the martyr poster continue to think their parent is somehow the victim? (The real victim is the martyr poster.)

Your child is in middle school. That's a difficult age, where the child is going through many changes. Don't make it that much more difficult by stepping in to do caregiving for your mother that you so wisely steeped away from!
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Do you feel you're obligated to personally care for your mom, or obligated to interfere with your sis and dad's decisions because you feel they are not in your mom's interest? If you feel you're still obligated to care for mom, you're not, she has appointed POAs to make her care decisions. Let them take the reins. Although you may challenge their decisions, you are unfortunately, still the Cinderella, because mom has delegated others to legally care for her. And that's OK. You may not agree with their decisions for your mom, but you have enough on your plate with your and your child's health and wellbeing. The two of you come first.

Your guilt is why, because you've backed off? You've given of yourself long enough. There is no guilt in realizing that. Guilt in your case is both self imposed and misplaced. Ben Franklin is quoted as saying, “There are three things extremely hard; steel, a diamond, and to know one's self”. You've apparently set a limit on your involvement with your mom's care and your dad's indignation. You've transferred all that caregiving energy to caring for yourself. Excellent.

So instead of feeling trapped, recognize the freedom you give yourself by letting mom's POAs handle her care, and by having recognized your caregiving limits.
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Offering you a huge hug. I do not do primary caregiving, I have put boundaries in place to prevent that, but I do understand being treated as the Cinderella.

Although it is hard, you need to step back. Your first priorities are you and your child. Everything comes after the two of you. If you have grave concerns over how Mum is being treated by Dad and your sister report your concerns to Mum's doctor to your local seniors advocate.

Although I do not provide hands on care, I do deal with a great deal of challenges in my family, a mother who has been exposed to Covid, an adult son who had a psychotic break last week and providing respite for my infant grandson all while launching a new career. We cannot do everything and sometimes the best thing we can do is take care of ourselves and let the chips fall.
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Your instincts to back off are correct. In a situation where no matter what you do it is either not correct or refused there’s no winning. Continue to look after your child and your own self care. You don’t owe the rest of the family explanations for your choices, they wouldn’t be good enough anyway. Don’t take any rudeness or abuse from your dad, leave each time it happens. I’m sorry you’re going through this, but am sure your mother knows your love
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You need to “let go.” Your father and sister may not get it right the first time but they’ll learn. They want control so let them have at it. You need to put yourself first.
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I am so sorry for the situation you find yourself in. I believe your decision to step away is the right one.

Your father seems angry that you can't fix your mother so he can have the retirement with her that he wanted. It seems (imho) that your father may believe you owed him for his taking you to your cancer treatments all those years ago. He wanted you to stop your life to take care of your mother, but he refused to retire for that exact reason so he wouldn't have to deal with it. He wants you to work on his schedule and do it his way. Let's face it, your father is just carrying a lot of anger and he's directing it at the person he feels should be able to fix it the way he wants it fixed.

Do you have other siblings? You said you were the oldest of the children. If there is more than you and your sister what is their relationship with your parents, your sister and you? Has your sister always been the fair-haired child? If there are other siblings what is their opinion of the situation? From reading your post, it appears the dynamics were already there before the Alzheimer's diagnosis and your mother's condition has exacerbated it further.

You say your parents and sister's family vacationed together and they visited her. Your family wasn't invited and they rarely visited you - could this have had something to do with your marriage (I DON'T ask this to place any blame on anyone - while my parents/mom loved/love my husband, a little of him goes a long way and because of his personality I try to limit their exposure to him - mom acknowledges his good points but his bad points ... well enough said.) It's just that you seem to still have some ongoing concerns there (custody). You also said when you asked what the problem was you got no answer - I know my parents/mom wouldn't go out of their way to talk about my husband. Let's face it family can be messy - really, really messy.

You also spoke of the difficult discussions with your mother regarding her future journey. Did family resent the gloomy future she had to look forward to? Were they looking for your mother to be cured? It sounds as if the family is still in denial if they refuse to plan for your mother's future.

I'm not trying to place the blame on anyone - just a 3rd party with no skin in the game trying to analyze your post and present - well I don't know what I'm trying to present - an alternate view of things from the outside.

You should be able to visit your mother whenever you want. Make sure they know you love them both dearly while you can. While saying that - it doesn't mean you put up with dad's anger and abusive behavior. Address it or leave.

The number 1 thing I would not do is criticize sis on the job she is or isn't doing. Let her do what she does and if she asks an opinion give it without judgment and with kindness (easier said than done). Your father is burning himself up with anger. Did he always have an explosive temper? Would he be willing to get mental health services with a possible Rx - if we were talking about my father the answer would be a firm "NO." Also, if your father asks something of you THAT YOUR ARE WILLING AND ABLE TO DO, then do it with kindness and love for your parents. If you can't also decline the request with kindness and love.

One of the reasons you say you stepped back is because spiritually you needed to. You are going to have to lean hard on your spiritual life to get through this. Pray, meditate or whatever your practice is often and leave the stress, anger or other negative feelings there. Live with as much faith as you can muster.

If none of this applies, then by all means disregard it without another thought - as I said I'm just a third party with no skin in the game.

I wish your love and peace. Blessings on you and your family.
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