Missed another doctors appointment yesterday. Luckily next week is phone appointment. He had brain surgery on benign tumour last year and pituitary gland needs building up so he takes meds for that but doesn't seem to care except when I'm there four days a week to give him meds & he forgets or doesn't want to take on his own.
Had physical therapy four months ago coming to home and he could use walker five feet, since he fired them, doesn't have strength to barely get out of bed into power wheelchair. I've got all the nescessities to make things easier for him but get angry he gave up when stopping therapy. Now all is on me. I got more hours through agency that pays me for his care, but all I want is to not see him give up and go downhill so quickly. This is frustrating because now he's not even strong enough to transport in van and although reality and inevitable, too soon when I know if he wouldn't have fired therapists, he'd be more confident on not falling, balance issues are a big issue & it's killing my back no matter what right strategies I do. I cry when fire department has to come and help me because dad worked with me before and I was stronger also. What do I do? He doesn't want to go to a home. And I wouldn't want heavens gate as an option either. But how can I discuss this with him?