Last year I moved back with my parents. The plan is temporary until I found a new place. Beginning of this year, my dad passed away unexpectedly. As we are very close family, we are not taking it well. Since dad's passing, my brother and I have been the main caregiver for our mom - who is in her 80s with CKD, high blood pressure and mobility issues. Mom has been refused to get any help from anyone outside of the family. Since covid-19 outbreak, I have been working from home and in between work, I am helping to take care of her hygiene.
My brother is a very protective man and I can see that he is stressing out all the times. The relationship between my brother and I have been impacted a little these days as I am not used to being told what to do and follow his rules at home. I have not spent time with my boyfriend since March given that he is working at retails and are trying to protect mom from the possibility of getting sick. My sister moved back home since beginning of July. She doesn't get along well with us and I can sense that it is just a matter of times that everyone will be losing it. I know my mom would prefer that I take care of her than my sister. My boyfriend's patient is running out and I really need a mental break from work and home. We have made plan to spend a week in August at his place and after that I will be self isolated at the basement for 14 days.
I am looking forward to it but at the same time feeling guilty of leaving mom, brother and sister at home. Am I selfish??
Thank you for letting me air it out.