I went to see daddy today to watch a football game with him. He was happy to see me at first then he started getting agitated and started ignoring me. I didn't have to go up there, I wanted to. I thought he'd enjoy being able to watch the game with me. It really hurt my feelings that he treated me that way. I mean I know it's the disease but he could have at least tried to enjoy the visit and the game.
I'm so upset that I continually keep getting my feelings hurt by his actions or words. Am I crazy for thinking he could try to act happy to see me? I guess I'm expecting too much from him? I just feel so damn depressed especially because I let it get to me. I've always been a very emotional person and I cried all the way home. I'm freakin' tired of crying over him. I feel like I'm at the point of saying screw it, if he's gonna act this way I just won't go see him - make him feel bad about why I'm not there.