...and people giving me the encouragement to keep going. I am really sorry if I have done something wrong. Briefly, I talked to my mom and she is reliving the passing of my brother who died 51 years ago at the age of 9. Then she said she has lost two sons. I don’t know what to say to her. Especially this year with my living brother out of our lives. I just pray that there is still hope. I lot of other things have happened on this date. 22 years ago I was supposed to have a quick four hour surgery but it was 13 hours and it changed my life forever. I just accepted that this was my new normal. I dont have children do to this surgery so I can’t imagine what it’s like for my mom. I want to make it better for her i just don’t know how. Again please accept my apologies if I have done something wrong. I really love this forum. You have given me strength and love when I thought I wouldn’t be able to go on.