In the last year I have had to deal with so many unpleasant, stressful, sad events.. all while maintaining my full time job and caring for my parents.
This last year my mom as well as my dad was diagnosed with dementia.. alzheimers.
This last year I had to euthanize my dog of the last almost 16 years. She was my everything and provided so much companionship, comfort, love. The evening that she was euthanized I had to go to my parents and pretend like all was ok when my heart was breaking.
This last year I had a sore on my face very close to my eye that wasn't healing. I had a biopsy.. and yep.. it was cancer. Had another procedure to remove more of the skin around it to get all the cancer.. and I was terrified i would lose my eye or a large part of my nose. Thankfully they removed it without any major deformaties.
In the last year my dad got pneumonia and was in the hospital for a week and rehab for a week. I had to take care of my mom and get full time caregivers to stay with my dad. My mom got bronchitis so I was having to deal with her sickness, my dad, I got a cold, had to keep working as I had a major project due at work...no help from siblings of course.
This last year my siblings have distanced them selves even more and my 2 sisters have not even called my parents or me in months.. My brother had a hairbrained scheme to take care of them at their lakehouse and be paid an enormous salary. He backed out when I said no to his request for 4 weeks vacation, holidays and all weekends off.
They didn't even call for Mothers Day ... :(
Sorry about all the negativity in the post.. its just so much .. or at least it feels like it to me. I am so ready for a little happiness in my life.