I am a 24 year old only child who just recently graduated with my bachelors degree. I had originally planned on taking just 6 months to rest after going through four years of rigorous course work and to study for graduate school exams. In November, My father fell a few times and was sent out to the hospital. Upon his discharge he was sent to a care facility and then a week later back in the hospital with gastro-intestinal issues. He spent two months there during the winter and two months in short term care(STC) in the spring. My father has MS and due to the 2 month stay in the Hospital he lost a lot of muscle mass and didn't rehab well in STC. We have had home PT through home care come in and work with him and he's getting better but he still needs someone to be primary care giver essentially. My mother is the only one who works and needs to keep her job for insurance and rent and other bills. Lately he's become more verbally abusive towards both of us (mostly myself) and I cannot take it anymore. I have become bitter and angry towards him and others and I can't control it. I feel trapped at home and I feel guilty for wanting to apply to jobs or grad schools outside of my state in my field because there's no one else to take care of him. It has come to the point where I'm pretty sure I'm depressed and I don't know what else I can do. He can be left for an hour or so but that's it. I've tried getting out to the library and other local spots close to my house but I can't spend much time there before I have to go back. My mom is supportive of me and she does stand up for me but I've never been good at talking about this with her because I don't want to cause her more stress. She has enough on her plate and I don't want to weigh it down more. I feel like I owe it to my mom for everything she's helped me with throughout my undergrad because she has been the primary support for the household since my dad's MS diagnosis in 2009. I just want to take my life off pause or at least get a part time job so I can make some money and start saving up.