4 months ago I was at a low tolerance, high stress level, I could see the downward spiral I was on. Then I placed my husband (Alzheimer's diagnosed 2-1/2 years ago but it was there well before that). It was a rocky adjustment period for us both and still is to a degree. I think in my gut I know it was right, but now I am feeling stronger and even beginning some volunteering, and still reading and going to my support group. Now and then feelings take over that maybe I can do the caregiving from home again, maybe learning better methods, etc, etc. We have been married 54 years and never apart before, shouldn't or couldn't it be that way again?
Sitting back I know this is the right decision, he is doing well enough, I visit, daily but leaving him always elicits "why can't I come home with you?"
Sorry to be so wordy here but why do some caregivers survive the caring at home until the end and some don't do that well? Guess the bottom line is "did I give up too soon?"
Stress, anxiety, feeling better with much needed time, etc. are all there. Maybe call it doubt or just a haunting feeling of did I do right, plus the financial burdens that now exist... I need conviction of putting this to rest and accepting it is for the best. I love my husband so very much and wish it didn't have to come to this...but it has. Maybe this is magnified post holidays or some such?
Enough ranting, just looking for opinions from you caregivers out there. Thank you for listening.