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Like stages of grief....?
I'm sure some never accept it. What I'm seeing is like Mom is on an emotional roller coaster.


She's wanting to live to, see her grandkids grow up. Then, to see them just one more time. Lately it's, "I just can't take this anymore." Sometimes it's, "I just want to be normal again." The hardest to hear is the, "I just want to go to sleep and never wake up."


This struggle is real. She's looked in my eyes and said, "I'm really dying right?" Other times I get, "I don't want to die."


The beautiful ones are when she's holding my hand and she catches me crying, she'll perk right up and sternly say, "No no I'll bounce back, don't cry, it WILL be ok." (Hey all, meet my Mom!) Yeah, totally Mom mode there.


Just wondering if she'll come to accept she's dying. I guess no one really knows since everyone is different.


I'm so mad, I want to put my head through a wall! I want to curse, scream, cry, throw sh*t, throw up and howl.....yeah I actually want to howl!!!


(Speaking of an emotional roller coaster)

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I think the stages of grief fit very well: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. And I know that many never get to the acceptance stage, or even past the denial.
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"I need God right now so much, but I just can't feel Him anymore." Not being able to feel God's presence is normal in your circumstances. Just because you can't feel God's presence does not mean that he is not there. Remember that faith and feelings don't always match together. Be still and trust.
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Dee,
Thank you. I know now it sound stupid, but I always thought when a person finished one stage they'd be done with it and move to the next. Not jumping back and forth through them. Sounds so ridiculous because I know emotions are crazy.

The spiritual councilor will be here Friday. I doubt Mom will want to talk to him, but I NEED to. I need God right now so much, but I just can't feel Him anymore.

Worried,
Me and Mom have always been amazingly connected.... to a fault. What she felt, I felt and vice versa. So I totally get what you went through.

This poor soul doesn't even call for me anymore. When she wakes up, she just lays there. She doesn't eat, doesn't drink and she only pee's once, every 24 hrs. 

This, by far, is the hardest thing I've ever done. 
Thank you ladies for taking the time to help me.
HUGGZ 🤗 to you both💕🌹
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This is me right now! I feel so bad because I sometimes will talk stern to my Mom because I wish she would, "snap out of it!" But she can't, its not her fault, and we have to work with what we got!
I will pray for us both!
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Pepsee,
I think that those who are dying also grieve and go through the various stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. A person can jump from one stage to another stage depending on their current emotions. Sometimes as a person “prepares for death”, they attempt to finish a life’s work, set things right with family and friends, make peace with the inevitable, participate in religious or family rituals, and thus achieve a deep sense of peace with the help of family, friends, and sometimes clergy.
I am sorry to hear about your Mom. I hope that Hospice is helpful to her and to you. {{Hugs}}
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Hi Val,
Big HUGGZ 🤗 Back!
Yep, that's just what she's going through.

What a horrible feeling to be so helpless.
Talk it out, cry it out, scream it out. That's all I can do, so I don't fall in to a dark depressed hole myself.

I'm always here if you need me.💖🌹
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Oh Pepsee! I’m so sorry! It does sound like your mom is grieving. When MIL was on hospice, it absolutely felt like a rollercoaster to me! There is no other way to describe it. And wow even though I wasn’t the one dying, I felt the same emotions you describe your mom having. Sometimes I just couldn’t believe it. Sometimes I overcome with sadness. Sometimes when she seemed to be doing well, eating a lot and her breathing was stable, I felt hope, I thought maybe she wasn’t as bad off as the dr said and she’d make it to the end of the year after all. And then there were times, before she got reallt bad, where I felt desperation, that there must be something we can do to keep her alive longer. I have no idea what she felt, she was a stoic woman and she never let on what she was feeling, at least not to us kids. I sensed she was angry. But she kept her grief private.
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Pepsee, I do feel helpless at times, however we also have a small farm, so I take my frustrations out on the fencing and chores along with physical labor.

Thank you.
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Pepsee, this sounds like what my husband is doing right now. I want to tell him to 'stop it' get with it...get moving, stop it! But I don't.
He has become so withdrawn and when we do talk he laments that he just needs to get 'better' he just needs to feel 'better' one more time.
We both know he is dying a bit at a time. He is depressed.

He is sad, he wishes he'd just go in his sleep. Most of all, I think he is tired of being alive and struggling each day along with slowly losing his mental capabilities.

Here is a hug, I know what you are going through ... I think.
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Pepsee,
This is the really hard part for Everyone! My MIL came to our house in the country to live and die here on the farm in the end. She was not here long at all before hospice was brought in. My husband's family helped some, but it came down to she and I mostly at night. She had good faith but near the end, she would panic and worry about going to Heaven, leaving her grown children, unfinished business so to speak. Wanted to see everyone of course. Some days chipper, some sad, mostly all over the place about was Everything Done. She did not have Alzheimer's like my Mom does. She was just 90 and her body was shutting down. I think we all would have all these emotions if we have any mind left and time to contemplate before our ending. I just wanted you to know that I think it's all normal. My Mom is so mixed up and she says she wants to go to sleep and not wake up too sometimes. Other days she says she will snap out of this and get better. You both have all the emotions and stages we all have. And They do waffle back and forth. Sending you lots of love today!
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