Hello, I just joined this group. Not sure I have enmeshed relationship with my mother, but probably. We've been close ever since my Dad died when I was 18 (she was 48), kind of became best friends. I'm terrified of her dying. I'm unmarried and no kids, in my 40s, with no other family close by. Now that I live close to her, I'm hoping I can start a family, and hopefully before she dies so that she can experience a loving family, grandkids, and not worry that she's leaving me alone. But I don't seem to be having any success. Fears of past breakups and disappointments keep me sidelined and just feeling too old to matter to anyone out there looking for the same thing. I'm stuck and scared and feel the clock ticking. So much self-imposed pressure is taking a toll on me. I hope I can see my way through this.