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Melissakay Asked January 2023

Where to turn, when there's nowhere to turn?

Caring for a parent with Dementia/Alzheimer's can be overwhelming. I don't want to bother my siblings with my struggles about coping with watching our Mom's memory decline daily and I have given up my social life so I'm able to care for both parent's comfortably at home and without the worry of putting either of them in a long-term care facility, however, It would be wonderful to have a space where I'm comfortable expressing my feelings and fears related to My Mother's dementia when I feel as if I have no one who understands how devastating it is.

Fawnby Jan 2023
Many of us understand what you are experiencing because we are going through it ourselves. Some of us have been through it multiple times. You’ll learn a lot of things here, and one of them is that you are not required to give up your life to take care of your parents. You have a right to a happy existence as much if not more than they do. Yes! That’s right!

You say, “I'm able to care for both parents comfortably at home and without the worry of putting either of them in a long-term care facility.” Your being able to do that, in your mind, requires you to make all the sacrifice. Why? You could call on your siblings for support, but you don’t want to bother them. Why? What I’m getting at is, why are you less important than all these people? Why must you keep them happy but not yourself?

The thing is, a long-term care facility is not a worry. It’s a way to have your beloved parents taken care of by professionals. It’s a way for you to go back to being a daughter who is not frazzled, upset, overwhelmed and exhausted. A daughter who has time to visit and have fun with them in their remaining days on this earth. A daughter who doesn’t resent her parents for being a burden. Please visit some so you can understand what memory care facilities are about before you rule them out.

And no, I have nothing to do with such facilities. I’m a caregiver taking care of my 4th LO with dementia. I’ve learned my abilities and my inabilities. You will too, sooner rather than later. I’m just trying to provide the shortcut for you to get to the point you need to be.

BarbBrooklyn Jan 2023
Welcome, MelissaKay!

Please vent away, but understand that you are going to get a lot of suggestions about how to get help with caregiving.

It is simply not possible for one not so young person to care for a dementia patient alone.

Let alone two! Thaks Lea, for pointing that out.

How much help do you have coming in?

Do you take regular breaks to get exercise, see friends, get to your own medical appointments and see your kids?
lealonnie1 Jan 2023
She's caring for BOTH elderly parents at home!

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CTTN55 Jan 2023
I echo Fawnby when she said

"You say, 'I'm able to care for both parents comfortably at home and without the worry of putting either of them in a long-term care facility.' Your being able to do that, in your mind, requires you to make all the sacrifice. Why? You could call on your siblings for support, but you don’t want to bother them. Why? What I’m getting at is, why are you less important than all these people? Why must you keep them happy but not yourself?"

How/why did you end up the one to be the caregiver for your parents?

Why CAN'T you "bother" your siblings?

Have you considered a facility for your parents? If not, why not?

AlvaDeer Jan 2023
Any caregiver support groups in your area? Likely not as they are rare as hen's teeth and no one caring for elders at home has time to go to them.
I would consider being honest with your siblings. Not to ASK for their help in care and coping, but to HOPE they might help, with nothing other than listening if possible at the least. If not, OK, that's your choice. A lot of people don't HAVE other siblings.
I know nothing about your family situation but I truly believe our obligation is to live our own lives, as GIVEN to us by our parent. To give our energies to our own immediate family. I do not believe in sacrificing our lives on the altar of the end of life care of parents, and I feel parents should not require nor expect that (at 80 I most certain DO NOT/would not have it, and that is made clear to my kids.
You might consider a few hours of counseling with a Licensed Social Worker who does private practice counseling as they are often best at life transitions work.
I think I may hear buried in all this your worry about giving up your own life. If I don't hear it I SHOULD BE HEARING IT. It needs to be considered.
I sure wish you the best. It is clear you have the purest of heart; but the pure of heart are often nominated for Sainthood; it is a very very bad job description. Don't apply for it.

Emma1817 Feb 2023
I continue to be puzzled by so many blithe “oh, just put them in a facility” responses. Well, YEAH, duh, obviously, that would be just utterly dandy, if not, oh gee, for the $5,000-$10,000 per month cost. What if these parents don’t have that kind of swag, but have juuuuuuust too much money for Medicaid qualification?

OP, you sound as if a Medicaid facility would not be fancy enough for you (pardon me if I am wrong), but, just as our parents sent us to the colleges for which they could afford the tuition, so must they learn to live in the “facilities” they can afford/get federal aid for.

Get your darn siblings involved. Martyrdom/sainthood? Overrated!
Invisible0ne Feb 2023
You are spot on with all the “facility solution” responses! In my area a NH runs between $12k-$15k a month. My father will *never* qualify for Medicaid because he worked into his late 70s. Knowing what I know now, there’s no point to saving for your retirement years or delaying retirement when everything you’ve worked for gets confiscated by the government or some corporate conglomerate in the end, no matter what you do.

I have an aunt that was just placed in a Medicaid NH due to stroke. My other aunt had to “buy her way in” (ie pay a few months in advance out of her own savings) to get her placed due to the long waitlists. Shady to say the least.

Just like how Airlines are not in the transportation industry (they only make money as Credit Card Companies) and Starbucks isn’t actually a coffee company, Nursing Homes/MCs etc are not in the business of providing care. They make their money by confiscating family assets with assistance from our government.

No Thank You. I’ll happily hire private caregivers & pay them a living wage & keep my loved ones away from those vultures.

Just today there was a news story about how one of the “top ranking” NHs in the country declared an 82 yr old woman dead, sent her to a mortuary, only to get a call that she was still alive. That’s the sort of care these facilities offer for $15k a month.
ChoppedLiver Feb 2023
I'll echo what others have put in here plus add a few of my own.

We, as a forum, are happy to allow you to express your feelings. Also, you are welcome to contribute. Just don't be mean or condescending about it. However, using a forum like this to vent, means that you could get unwanted advice and criticism, so beware. As I told my friend about all the political e-mail that I get..."just keep scrolling, scrolling, scrolling.." (like Dory's "just keep swimming, swimming, swimming." in Finding Nemo)

Definitely do not give up your social life. Just re-direct your social life. For instance, finding a support group is a good thing. Talking to others about something not related to caregiving is a good thing. Volunteering at a church or food bank or at a social agency is a good thing. Paying for self defense classes or taking karate/akido is a good thing. For me, the more different things I had, the more I could deal with the frustration of care giving because my mind could move from one area to another, to provide a little bit of relief from the never ending frustration of care giving (Caregiving is not easy for me.)

If you can, find some professional therapy. They could introduce you to new ideas you could use when giving care to your parents. For instance, she provided a "Intensity of Feeling Chart" that helps me to deal/rationalize my emotions.

Talk to your siblings, if you are on good terms with them. First, figure out what role you would like them to play. Then ask yourself whether that role is something they could do. My sister is the catastrophic thinker. Because she thinks the way she does, she gives me ideas on what to research. Share funny stories. Ask them questions about the past. It helps them to feel connected to your situation and you might learn something that they discovered, about your parents too! However, be cognizant of their time. You don't want to be the phone call or email that they ignore.

For me, typing on the computer, better known as journaling, helps relieve me of the burden of my thoughts. As I type, I read. As I read, I review my situation, As I review the situation, I come up with things I haven't thought of or actions that I need to take. I have one document on my computer where I wrote a letter to my Mom, thanking her for giving me this time with her as I accompany her on her journey with dementia. I tear up every time I read it, and I'm tearing up now as I type in this forum.

Mindfulness and meditation are great so that you can temporarily acknowledge and rein in the emotions that you are feeling at that point.

Get on some public zoom calls. I'm on the list for some banks and hospitals and financial institutions. Think of it as continuing education. Lots of banks have classes on wills and trusts. Many hospitals have one hour lectures on various medical topics, including Parkinsons, Heart Disease, Diabetes, Knee surgery, etc. These are useful so that as different medical and financial situations come up, you will already have some basic knowledge and can come up to speed on your specfic situation faster.

The idea is to keep your mind open to any and all opportunities. The more informed you are, potentially the easier time you will have in making decisions related to your parents care and the less fear and frustration you will have, as you forge your forward path.

funkygrandma59 Jan 2023
First find a local caregivers support group, where you can vent away with other folks that know exactly what you're going through.
A lot of them do meet on Zoom if you can't attend in person. You can "Google" to see if there's one in your area.
Second, quit being the martyr and get your siblings involved in your parents care. They should be helping just as much as you are, and even if they don't live close, they can pay to have prepared meals delivered in for them or offer to come for a long weekend to give you a break.
Third, you must be realistic about the fact that perhaps someday you may have to place one or both of your parents in a facility. And that's ok. It will come to a point where you will have to do what is not only best for them but for you as well, as everyone has their breaking point.
And last but certainly not least, you must take time for yourself, away from your parents so you can do what you enjoy. I'm sure your children and grandchildren would like to spend time with you without you being all burnt out.
You say you've given up your social life. Why? You need that now more than ever. 40% of caregivers caring for someone with dementia will die before the one they're caring for, from stress related issues. Do you want that to be you?
If you're not careful and don't start taking care of you, it very well could be. Would your parents want you to give up your life for theirs? I highly doubt it.
So start making the necessary changes today to get your siblings more involved and to start enjoying your life again, before it's too late.

my2cents Feb 2023
Not understanding why you don't want to bother your siblings. You aren't making them aware of the decline? Or that you need a break? They should always be in the loop. Parents belong to all the kids. If you don't ask for help, you certainly won't get any. Yes, some sibs will out and out refuse, but doesn't sound like they've done that yet. Inform and ask.
Daphne131 Feb 2023
There is NO legal nor moral duty to work for and keep family informed. The family has a duty to contact the parent and ask. When they don’t and when they don’t volunteer help, they show they didn’t care and don’t want to help. Keeping family whi don’t care to call or volunteer “in the loop” is a disaster in the waiting. When something is done by primary caretaker they don’t like, they will criticize, harass, demoralize the already over worked caretaking family member.

The family has no legal nor moral bias to ask to be kept in the loop. If they want to know things, they can come by, call the parent. The relative caretaker has a legal and moral duty to NO family but only to the parent.

too many cooks in the kitchen keeping “family in the loop” per a nurse and doctor we met. If they want to be in the loop, this family needs to help, send presents, pay to help support the parent.
NancyIS Feb 2023
Dementia is a devastating disease, and you are being very responsible and thoughtful to take the whole burden on yourself. Connect with a local social worker to find out if you are getting all of the benefits your mother and you as a family caregiver are entitled to, including access to counseling if you think it would help. Also connect with local caregiver groups so that you can share experiences and get advice. There's a lot to learn about dementia, and all of its stages and ways that it can manifest. At some point you may need to have a nurse come in to show you how to handle transfers, turning people in bed, giving dry shampoos and cleaning people in bed. You'll need advice about equipment and supplies that are useful to have on hand. Remember that dementia is likely to get worse. Hopefully it will never happen, but it's good to have a plan for a time when things may be too much for you to do alone. All the best to you and your family!

Nanulinda1 Feb 2023
I would suggest contacting Alzheimer’s Association or the Council on Aging in your area. They will be able to help you find a Caretakers meeting . My man’s decline started in 2016. It took 3 years for me to understand that “I” needed help . I was worn out and ANGRY . I felt guilty because I was snapping at him all the time . At my first meeting I learned about the Broken Brain and how the behavior ( I was watching ) was not directed at me , to hurt me, but it had to do with what was going on in his brain . My Caretaker meeting have saved my sanity . We are in the moderate/advanced stages and it is so much easier now than it was all those years ago. When the pandemic hit we starting meeting on Zoom and still do . I have given up quite a few things that I used to do and now have help in on a regular basis so I can get out a little . I am blessed with friends that know the both of us and spend time at our house . You are not alone and there is help out there, you just have to make the first steps . I am alone with this . There is no family around . I know what the future will bring and with the information I have gained , I am preparing for what will come next . I am doing the best I can with what I have to work with. My prayers are with you .

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