I have been warned by my doctor to give up my cargiving role as my health is been badly affected had to go to emergency and now they want to start a series of tests as im getting bad chest pains. The stress of the last few years has taken its toll and I know now that i have to give this up and get my life back on track.
My mum will have to go to a NH now in the new year and the thoughts of it is depressing me as i never wanted it to get to this? the problem is she is still fairly competent and would just be distraught if she had to go into a NH she dosnt seem to register how ill i am so its going to be tough now.
I will have to tell the family that my health is important now and i cant do this alone there is noone else here to look after her and she cannot live alone anymore.
Im not sleeping as its like a living nightmare just thinking of her been forced into a NH but there is no other solution that i can find.
Im drained and want my life back and try and get my health back to normal the stress of this job is just too much.
Has anyone had to put their parent into a home while they were still fairly competent and very aware?
I feel so bad like ive let her down but the chest pains really scared me its a wake-up call that I cannot do this anymore this is no life for me the constant anxiety will kill me.
I am a smoker so the cigs will have to go next week which is going to be tough on top of stress then im sure to have mood swings and i know mum will annoy me and I dont want to be angry at her. Yep this is going to be tough but I have to do it now as i cant smoke anymore and be constantly stressed i think the chest pains are a warning and hope nothing serious.
Gosh stop smoking,lose weight,put my mum in a home no wonder I dont want to get up in the morning!