I work 50+ hours a week, have a teenager and care for my mother who has steadily required more attention/assistance daily, in everything she does. She is a fall risk and slowly losing her ability to walk and move at her own free will. Mom says down and depressed, constantly tells me she's unhappy [at home], tells me we don't get along and that my child didn't like her (which isn't true). Her unhappiness and those feelings are coming from within her, probably because she's stressed, sad and scared of her situation/diagnosis [which is understandable]. She expects us to move when she says nice, gets demanding sand didn't want me speaking to anyone other than her, including my own child. It gets frustrating, as I have out my life on hold to care for her as she becomes more demanding/rude. If physical ever becomes a factor, my decision will be a no brainer... But for now, I am struggling with the fact that I need to find her a long term care facility. She's getting weaker by the day and more depressed, to the point I feel useless and it's weighing heavily on my heart and soul. I'm exhausted but feel guilty for even considering having her go to a long term facility. An I being selfish wanting me time and to live with just myself and my child and placing her into a facility to Greece the 24/7 care she expects from me? It's just something I can't do and never will be able to provide the fun time care she's expecting of me. I'm torn, sad, exhausted, worried and feel like a horrible person, caregiver and daughter.
Anyone else go through this struggle?!