Feeling like crap.
I will preface this rant by saying I'm an only child.Mom went into the hospital, was there all last week,and thankfully the doctors recommended rehab because she was so weak she couldn't move around properly. Other than the weakness her vitals were pretty stable.
Mom is a tad narcissistic, and very needy, so it's been a rough week for me. She is also severly overweight which compounds all the problems she already has. She is alone since dad died, so I tried to show empathy as much as I could even though she is somewhat of an emotional vampire. I would be scared in her position too.Just for my own personal beliefs, I didn't want to leave her totally alone at the hospital so I went every day after work , and got her stuff together in case they moved her to rehab in the middle of the night.
Now that she is more stable, I am practicing loving detachment by not going every day, just calling once or twice a day, etc. But the past week took a huge emotional toll on me. I have two young uns, age 7 and 10, and trying to care for the house and them and my hubby (who has helped out greatly) while working a full time job has just knocked me on my ass. I already have issues with anxiety and depression and have felt as if I've been having a low level panic attach ever since this started. It feels like dad's roller coaster of being ill.
I will say that one thing that has helped has been lurking here. So, thanks everyone ahead of time for listening.
I am seeing my doctor tomorrow to go over it with her (health insurance doesn't cover mental health and I can't afford counseling right now), but I am just blaaaggh. I don't feel like moving around or doing much and I'm frustrated because I had been having a good upturn in my mood.