I don't know what to do. I am at my wits end, and I don't know what can be done.
I am currently living with my parents and acting (with my dad) as a caregiver for my mother who has brain cancer and had lung cancer at one point. She is going downhill very quickly, due to what our oncologist thinks is a delayed reaction to the brain radiation that she was given. She is not the same person, cannot do pretty much anything for herself any more, cannot remember anything, has no sense of time, etc.
She is also extremely weak and in a great deal of pain, so much so that she absolutely refuses to rest. We put her in bed, and two minutes later she is getting up again and wanting more pain meds. Most of the time when she's trying to get out of bed she falls down. Or falls down in the bathroom, and my dad and I have to pick her up. This goes on ALL NIGHT long. Nobody can get any sleep. We are tired, hurting from having to pick her up, and patience is running thin. I don't know how much longer we can deal with this. He has a job he needs to go to, and I can't even look for a job because I have to take care of her. We can't get hospice in here because she's still going through tests and procedures to figure out exactly what's wrong with her, and there is nobody that can help us.
What the heck do you do in this situation? I also have an extreme amount of soul-crushing guilt because I almost want to just stick her in a home and be done with it. I love her to death, she used to be my best friend and I'd do anything for her, but we just can't keep going on like this. All she does is beg for pain meds and fall down, she refuses to rest becasue she says she's in too much pain to rest. Though even when I give her pain meds, she will still barely rest.
I am at my wits end, and I don't know what can be done.