This was the situation from my original post. https://www.agingcare.com/questions/enabling-my-mothers-misery-when-she-consistently-expresses-desire-to-die-455040.htm
I feel an overwhelming sense of relief and gratitude to be handing the torch of caregiving to the staff at the place we found for mom. It was the only MC that didn't "feel" like MC...lots if high functioning people like mom, and a large facility with a small residence (under 50) that she could freely roam in but was secure.
Mom has always considered being "put in a home" as her worst nightmare, and has little awareness of her dementia and her limitations. Very independent and has lived alone since her divorce over 30 years ago.
We successfully moved mom in a few hours while my sister kept her out of the house with an extended outing. Created a mini version of her living room with the rug, chairs, and tv. Brought her in under the guise that there was a water leak at home (which she has only partially understood was hers-thought it was a rental house) and we got out some of her stuff because she couldn't stay there while the power was off and the floors needed complete renovation. The staff was amazing and helpful and mom was tired, confused, but somewhat aware and had lots of questions which we managed to answer. She said she didn't want to be alone and was grateful. We got one phone call after leaving and talked her down a bit.
The first day, of course, dozens of calls to me, my husband, and sister. Heartbreaking. We talked to her a couple times, asking her to hold tight, but mostly just letting her vent her confusion, sadness, and anger. Let most of them go to voicemail. Meanwhile in conversation with Director about the calls, as she was putting on her polite face and being super nice. Mom figured out fairly quickly this was not a regular hotel, that some of the people there were very sick as she put it. That this was not where she belonged and we needed to come get her. Demands turned into pleading. It was tough to listen to but we know for sure this was the place she would successful if that was ever going to happen. Going back to her house was NOT an option. Mom is in a stage of dementia that is so tough...weirdly lucid at times and totally makes sense and can reason and be capable, but then next hour that can be gone. Meanwhile her emotions are a runaway train, and I feel for her. Her emotional strength has not been her strong point. She's lived in her head her whole life..and now that reliable friend is seriously failing her. Our deepest hope is she will eventually relax, let nice people be helpful, and do what she can. Have some laughs and live worry free for once in her life..letting her spirit shine. But that remains to be seen. I have to say, I'm hopeful with this facility. It's the best we've found.
The director sent me and my siblings an amazing recap email at the end of the day. She had taken a while just to talk and visit with mom, probing her fears and getting her to open up. Mom admitted she knew this was coming, but didn't think it was so close. Of course she will still plot ways to leave for a while but at least her emotional walls have begun to crack slightly. And she gave coping strategies for us as well as recommendations for mom. We were so very grateful after such a gut wrenching day. I'm sure today and tomorrow will be similar, but we are hanging in there. Not going to visit yet. hoping to maybe this weekend, we'll see how it goes. She is used to seeing me a couple times a week, though I realize her sense of time is not linear.
We plan to have short, frequent visits and would love to take her out on short outings if possible after the dust has settled. We will take the advice of the staff there into consideration. In the meantime, I'd love to hear from anyone here who has any successful suggestions for visits with a LO in a similar situation. I realize trial and error is a part of this life, and every situation is different! TIA.