How can I keep going?

My Mom lived with me for many years. I knew her end of life would come at my home because we'd discussed it and decided on home hospice. I lost her last July just short of her 95th birthday, She was on hospice for 5 months prior to passing. The last two weeks were the hardest and every day I thought she was 'going.' The only solution is to take one day at a time, one foot in front of the other and hopefully keep her as comfortable as possible. It's really tough to watch them go, Probably the hardest thing I've ever been through but Hospice kept her out of pain, To see the light go out of her eyes, to see her give up fighting (and boy was she a fighter!) was so sad. We just do the best we can.

When my Mother was seriously ill, the hospital staff thought she would pass any day soon. She did not. After spending about 30 days in the hospital my Mother was stable enough to return to the NH. She lasted another 30 days before she went to see God.

Alpha76,
I'm so sorry for what you're going through!
I was able to be with both my father and my beloved Uncle just before they passed.
Take comfort in the fact that even if it doesn't seem like it, she knows that you're there!!
96 is a good long life!! Hopefully a life well lived.
Obviously she is well loved!!
Your life will go on. And you will carry her with you always!
God bless!!

Like some others have suggested, I would quietly tell her how grateful I was for her love and care, how important that was for me. I reassured my mom that we would watch out for Dad so she wouldn't have to worry about this.
I wanted to sing a hymn to her and tried "Rock of Ages" but she didn't want that, she had been having nightmares about being stuck in the rocks. After she passed, I thought of the hymn I should have used: "Softly and tenderly Jesus is calling...calling for you and for me. (etc). I came to visit her for Mother's Day weekend and saw her on Saturday with the intent of seeing her again Mother's Day morning, but she died before anyone could get there. I went anyway and just sat quietly with her, recalling my many memories of our relationship. I felt her spirit was still there and we could connect on that level.
It felt very much like the right thing to do. I set aside a time now each week to think and pray for my mom and dad and other relatives and friends, holding them in my thoughts, praying for them to grow closer to God. It is my way of saying "Thank You" for the care and guidance I was given. Of course, I still miss them these many years later, but they are in a much better place now than here, so I just wait until it is my time to join them and try to live purposefully and in a caring way until then. I have heard this statement: "I have made death a messenger of joy! Wherefore dost thou grieve?" We grieve for our sense of loss, but can honor their memories by living a thoughtful life.

Imho, you can only keep going with the Lord as your guide.

Been there, done that. The only thing that I can suggest is - privately - just cry and let your feelings out because you must not hold them in. Be kind as much as you can but when you are alone, let loose. It is so sad but there really is not much you can do. Remember, nothing stays the same forever. This too shall pass.

Alpha76
Please accept my condolences on the loss of your mother. I pray that your mom, your brother and you are at peace now.

Alpha76: I am so very sorry for your loss and I send you deepest condolences.💞💞

So sorry for your loss. I wish you peace and comfort

I'm sorry for you loss. She is at peace, now.